someday; s.m.

Chapter 72

Shawn's POV

it's been exactly a month since i was told that North had died. It sucked, well a lot. We found out a lot about the death though, she was murdered and it happened the day after the court hearing which she had won.

all the text conversations we had in LA were fake and sent by her killer and that was about it.

after a week of staying here, i started my tour but then was diagnosed with chroncic depression and had to go home for my own "mental health"

it was around 5 and i had just woken up, i stared out the window and everything reminded me of her.

i decided to go out, i slipped on a sweater and walked out the door. My feet hit the concreate one after the other ringing in my ears i sighed. I kept walking down the street untill i got to a very unknown part of my neighborhood, people lived there but most of the houses were abandon. I turned into a path that led to North's forest. Walking down that path the memories played in my head. Everything.

The time i first saw her behind the tree, when Jake and Ryan thought i was crazy, when she liked Jacob better than me, when i found her runaway plan, when we sat on top of that deformed tree, getting kicked out of the movies, playing basketball, that night when i got the call she tried to kill herself, when she came back from that camp, when we broke up, when she kissed Wyatt, when she kissed me at homecoming, when we slept on that couch, the matching tattoo we got, the time i heard the words "she's dead"

I couldnt breathe. My heart pounding to hard and my lungs expanded like a balloon. I yelled for help, but i couldnt make any noise. I tried to run, to find a person but i stepped on something, looking down i saw that it was a hand attatched to an arm attatched to a body.

it was north.

"Oh my god," and i felt the same pain, that helplessness like nothing can help you screaming crying dying nothing you just feel.. stuck here.. stuck in the moment.

Tears streamed down my face, her black hair rested on her shoulders, pale skin, and her other hand resting on her chest. 

My tear fell onto her cheek but i just stood there frozen, just praying to disappear.

She had a note in her little hand, i bent down and took it out

stick to katie

-wyatt

a sob escaped my lips followed by many more until i looked up. i saw something moving. a person? a girl? north?

She walked infront of the tree, revealing herself. I looked down at the ground, her body still lying there.

"North?" i asked and she nodded smiling.

"I-I thought you were-"

"-Shhh," her had fell in mine, slipping me another yellow note, "you'll see me again..

someday"