I love my brother's enemy //C.H

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Katara

When me and the guys get home, I run down to my room. I wash the make-up off my face, brush my teeth, change into a Green Day t-shirt and sweats.

I cry myself to sleep.

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6 months later

I've been spending alot of time in and out of the hospital lately.

My doctor says I have full-on depression now, so Kendall makes me take pills. They don't work. I still cut and think about Calum. I almost blead to death last week. Kendall told Blake to watch me but she always says that she can't control me.

I spend time with Blake, Taehyung, and Michael when I'm not in the hospital. Ashton and Luke hang out with me sometimes but mostly stay with Calum.

I'm in the bathroom, washing off my arm after my latest art project is done.

I put on a long sleeve shirt and go upstairs.

"Hey Kat." James walks through the door with Logan and Kendall right behind him.

Carlos is at his house.......... with his wife.

"We got your favorite, peperoni pizza." Logan smiles.

"Did you take your medicine?" Kendall puts the pizzas down and turns to me.

I shake my head 'yes' even though I didn't.

He picks up on this. "Kat...."

I sigh and roll up my sleeves, showing him my artwork.

They all sigh and Logan grabs my medicine. They watch me take it and 'swallow' it

Once they're satisfied, they fill up their plates and go into the living room. I spit out the pills and fill my plate.

We watch Impractical Jokers. I can't bring myself to laugh though.

After I finish eating I go to my room and turn on 'Hate That I Love You So' by Rihanna ft. Ne-yo, crying silently.

[Rihanna:]
That's how much I love you
That's how much I need you
And I can't stand you
Must everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like you for awhile? (No....)

[Ne-Yo:]
But you won't let me
You upset me girl
And then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget (that I was upset)
Can't remember what you did

[Rihanna:]
But I hate it...
You know exactly what to do
So that I can't stay mad at you
For too long that's wrong

[Ne-Yo:]
But I hate it...
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don't want to fuss.. and fight no more
Said I despise that I adore you

[Rihanna:]
And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah...)
I can't stand how much I need you (I need you...)
And I hate how much I love you boy (oh whoa..)
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so (oh..)

[Ne-Yo:]
You completely know the power that you have
The only one makes me laugh

[Rihanna:]
Said it's not fair
How you take advantage of the fact
That I... love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain't right

[Ne-Yo:]
And I hate how much I love you girl
I can't stand how much I need you (yeah..)
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just can't let you go
But I hate that I love you so

[Both:]
One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me
And your kiss won't make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me...

[Ne-Yo:]
Yeah... Oh...

[Rihanna:]
That's how much I love you (as much as I need you)
That's how much I need you (oh..)
That's how much I love you (oh..)
As much as I need you

[Rihanna:]
And I hate that I love you so
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can't stand how much I need you (can't stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can't let you go (but I just can't let you go no..)
And I hate that I love you so

And I hate that I love you so.. so...

Calum

I've been staying home.......alot.

I don't miss her......

She's just another pretty face.............. right?

"Calum." Michael knocks on my door.

"Come in." I groan.

He comes in and immediately plugs his nose. "Oh dude. How long has it been since you took a shower?"

"When's the last time we went out?"

"Six weeks ago."

"Six weeks." I answer.

"Dude. Take a shower, we have to go out."

I groan but go to take a shower.

✴✴✴

We pull up to a mansion.

My heart skips a beat. "WHY ARE WE HERE?!"

I see Kendall, Logan, and James come out.

James turns back around and reaches back inside, he starts to pull at something.......... or someone.

Kat stumbles out. Her hair is, obviously, wet and in a high ponytail and her bangs are kept back with a black headband. She's wearing jeans and a black sweatshirt, with black hightops.

She looks exactly like I feel.

We get out of the car and Kat stares at me. She runs back into the house before anyone can stop her.

Kendall sighs and goes inside.

Ashton nudges me as a car pulls up.

Taehyung and Blake get out.

"James get Kat. We're taking her out." Blake leans against the car and James goes inside.

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A few minutes later

James drags Kat out. Kendall comes out right after.

Kat walks to Taehyung and Blake.

"Hey Kat." Taehyung smiles.

"Hey." She hugs him.

"We'll bring her back at...... six." Blake tells Kendall.

"Okay."

They kiss and then Kat, Blake, and Taehyung leave.

Well damn.....