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Chapter Twenty-Two

All I wanted was a glass of water, I didn't expect it to end that way. I heard the boy who just kissed me say how he truly feels about me. And I don't like what I heard.

I go to Dan's room and lay on the bed, starring at ceiling.
I never thought Dan would be the one to care for me and now only like me like that. It's okay that he doesn't want anything serious with me but why be all flirty and hold my hand then. He got my hopes up for no reason.

When he comes in, I pretend to be asleep. I hear him grab my phone from the sideboard and snap a picture of me. Typical. Then he leans forward and pecks me on my cheek. That makes me even more mad. He slides his hands under my legs and waist so he can place me on one side of the bed. After he tucks me in, he lays down next to me.

I am furious. He's clearly giving me false hope. I'd rather have him be honest with me and me be upset than him trying to get with me 'just for fun'.
I am able to contain myself, but when he grabs my hand and starts stroking it, I lose it.
I pull away and tell him to stop.
He doesn't respond quickly, probably in shock that I don't want to play these games anymore. "Are you okay?", he asks me but all I do is sign and close my eyes.

***

It is 12 pm when I wake up, Dan still next to me. I grab my phone and the first thing I see is the picture he took of me. Remembering the stuff from tonight makes me angry again.
I texted Zoe:
Y/N: You up?
Zoe: Yess, have been for ages. how are you?
Y/N: Meh.
Zoe: I'm sorry for you. But he's clearly not worth it? I mean if he acts all lovey dovey but doesn't want anything serious, that's just mean. He doesn't deserve you.
Y/N: Thanks Zo. I actually thought he liked me at one point.
Zoe: it's okay. You'll find someone who treats you right.

I sigh and put my phone to the side.
But I don't want anyone else. I thought he is perfect for and to me.

A few minutes later he wakes up.
"Morning, gorgeous", he says.
"Morning."
"You feeling good?"
"Yes."
"Sure?"
"Yes."
"Oh my god, girls.", he mumbles.
"What is that supposed to mean?"
"Damn, you're so moody. What is wrong? Was I really that bad of a kisser?", he replies sarcastically.
"Don't remind me of that. No, I'm just sick of you."
"What?"
"You heard, don't act stupid. And I heard too."
"Okay, whaat?"
"Oh my god. I heard you tell Zoe that you just want to have fun. And I'm annoyed because you act all flirty and sweet, and don't like me at all? Why do you give me such false hope?"
"Y/N are you serious. I'm sorry I'm nice?"
"You literally kissed me yesterday and held my hand."
"WE WERE SET UP FOR IT? Why the fuck do you not get that I don't want anything, right now? Did I ever say that I didn't fancy you at least a bit? Of course I do, it's obvious. But I don't want anything, right now. That doesn't mean I won't want anything in the future?", he is loud now.
"But why do you hav3 to act like this? If you didn't want anything why not make it clear? I'm not just here for you to 'have fun'. You're egoistic, Dan. So egoistic. I'm not a toy you can just leave in the corner until you want to play with it?"
"Calm the fuck down, oh my hell."
"I'll just leave.", I say holding back my tears.
"Fine, go and don't let the door hit you on the way out."
"Honestly fuck you."

I quickly grab my stuff, and run out off the door, still in Dan's shirt.

Why does he not even try to get where I'm coming from?