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Chapter Twenty-Three

That whole day Zoe, Louise and everyone else, except for Dan, tries to reach out to me.
But all I do is lay in bed and eat. And cry.
My thoughts went from 'did I really just blow my chance with the most perfect boy' to 'I hate Dan Howell so much".

At 5 pm I receive a Skype call from my mum. I quickly wipe away my tears, open my hair and accept it.
"Hey darling, happy new year!'", she sings cheerfully with the rest of the family in the back.
"Hello, happy new year to you too."
"Y/N, are you alright? You look a bit- um- muffed up", my dad says.
"Oh, yeah I'm totally fine. Just a little tired because I stayed up late."

After we finish talking, I go onto Instagram. Dan posted a new picture. It is a selfie that was taken this morning with everyone in it except for Joe and I.

And then, all of a sudden, I get a lot of messages at once.
*53 messages in 4 new chats*
I decide to check them out finally, just to see messages like: "Look at Alfies new vlog", "Omg, Alf's new vlog" and "holy shit".
Cool, what happened now.
I look up his newest vlog and start to watch it. Seems like a completely fine vlog. It's fun and cheery and he captured the evening really well. I don't know what the problem is? Everyone is in it and has a good time. Then it hit me, everyone is in it, that includes me.

DAN'S P.O.V:

That whole day was a mess. It started amazingly but ended badly.
Why did I ruin in with Y/N? Why can't we see eye to eye?
I like her a lot, and the reason I flirt with her is because of that. Obviously I fancy her a bit. But I can't be in a relationship right now. Firstly, we're going on tour soon so I won't be able to see her for a month. And also, I'm scared of what the viewers will say. They don't want me to be with anyone besides Phil.

Finally at 5:30 pm I decide to get myself some food. Everyone left earlier.
When I come back into my room, my phone has a lot of messages and is still vibrating when I pick it up.

Lou: Look at Alfie's vlog.
Dan: Do you really want me to be reminded of this night?
Lou: I'm serious watch it.

I sigh and start watching it. Everything is fine with it. He cut the part with Y/N out, so I don't see a problem.
I am about to close my laptop when I see it: He filmed the part where, shortly after midnight, Y/N and I are standing hand in hand under the fireworks.

He didn't film us, but himself with us in the background.