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Chapter Fifty-Eight

"Congratulations, you actually stuck through uni! Someone had to... lol.
Anyways, I am incredibly proud of you.
I know how much you stressed about it and I know how much you worked.
But it all payed off because you did amazing and I'm just a 10/10 happy for you. (See, all of my endless cuddles and kisses didn't distract you from getting your degree! ;-))
And I'm happy for myself too (lol), since I can spend more time with you now.
Prepare for an extra clingy boyfriend that won't take any excuses to kiss your stunning face.
I love you, :DAN", the letter says.

I put it down next to the coffee stain he left on my table and sit down.
This is what I'm talking about, that I love you, it feels real.
It just doesn't feel like this anymore. I do still have love for him. I still love that guy more than anything.

Speaking of him, he leaves another text for me to read.

Dan: How was work? Are you okay? Text me if you need anything.

Y/N: I'm okay, thx. How are you?

Dan: Thank god. I miss you.

Y/N: Are you at the airport?

Dan: Yes, boarding in a few minutes.

Y/N: Ok, safe flight, text when you land.

Dan: Will do.
Dan: I'll miss you a lot.

Y/N: I'll see you soon.

I sigh. I know I'm being a salty bitch, but that's how to handle Howell. Be a bitch when he's one.

He doesn't text back, I'm just guessing he's on the flight now.

I get up from the chair and leave the house.
All I want is to see Zoe, my best friend.
So, I get a cab to Joe's house she is still staying at.
Stepping foot into the cab, I see the same driver as the other day in the front seat: "Ah, you again? How's it going?", he asks me.
"Okay, I guess."

And I am okay without Dan, for now.

***

"Coming!", I hear a familiar voice from the inside after I knock on the door.

It opens and I see Joe in front of me.
"Hey.", he says quietly.
"Is Zoe here?"
"Um- yea, but can we talk first?"
"There's nothing to talk about.", I say and walk past him.

Arriving upstairs, I know exactly where Zoe is.

"Hey.", I now say quietly, opening the bedroom door.
"Oh, hello. How are you?", she says and stands up from the bed to hug me.
"Meh.", I say and shrug.

We obviously update each other on our situations.
"I mean, I'm still mad at Joe, but he's my brother after all.", she says and smiles weakly.
"I get it... I guess I have to talk to him as well."

And I do: "Joe?", I say, going down the stairs.
"Yea?", he responds from the livingroom.
"I want to talk to you."
"Oh, found something to talk about?"
"Shut up.", I say and fall on the sofa next to him.
"So...-", he begins.
"Do you actually love me?", I interrupt.
"I mean-", he says, "I did love you. Like, I could not get you off of my mind and after what Alfie said, I really thought I loved you."
"Do you, like...- still do?", I ask carefully.
He sighs: "Even if I did, it's wrong. You have Dan. And I guess he's good for you, if he loves you and treats you right."

Does he though?