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Chapter Hundred and Thirty

Back at the hotel, I put down my things and get cosy for bed right away. Going out isn't in my nature today because of Richard and, obviously, Dan. Today is also the last day of their stay in the US for the conventions.

Him coming here is totally different from what I imagined it to be. I wanted us to have a lot of fun while exploring the city and I wanted to meet up with Phil and maybe even Joe and Louise. But instead, I'm now sitting in my apartment and crying over a breakup that is probably all my fault. I told him to just break up with me, so what did I expect.

Just as I am reminiscing, a skypecall from Zoe comes in and I accept it this time.

"Y/N! Woken up from the dead? Why haven't you been answering my texts and calls?", she asks right away and looks at me hopefully.

But my expression represents everything but hopefulness: "Sorry. I haven't had the best few days..."

"Oh no, why? Did you and Dan get into a fight again?", she asks since she knows we fight a lot as we are both people with strong opinions.

"No. Well, not really. We, um-, broke up."

"What?!", she gasps and puts her phone down to put her full attention on me, "Why? When?"

I sigh before telling her all about it: "... He said that maybe love isn't about looking at each other but looking at the same direction, which we simply aren't."

This whole time her face is full of sadness and confusion: "I'm so sorry, love."

I give her a weak smile: "It's alright. I'll manage."

She knows I am lying but doesn't say anything about it but just continues to talk about my status: "Did you guys talk afterwards at all? I mean you were best friends and didn't separate because of something like broken loyalty, it can't just be over like that, can it?"

"No we didn't and I'm afraid it is even though he said we should talk when I'm back, if I ever am."

"Wow... this is crazy. I... I always thought you guys would get married one day. But I guess it wasn't meant to be."

I just shrug as a response.

"Isn't he still in New York?", she continues.

"Yes but I don't want to see him right now.", I say.

"Understandle. Did you talk to Phil? Does he know?"

"No but he probably does. Dan is his best friend after all. More like brother."

She nods: "So... what's your next step? I saw you deleted your pictures together."

"I did indeed. But I'm not sure honestly. Do I give him the promise ring back? Do I ask him to delete our pictures and videos? Will he tell his viewers? I have no idea Zo."

"You should just talk to him if I'm honest. Silence doesn't help the mess in your head."

Before I can open my mouth a text from Phil interrupts me, asking me if I have some time to talk today.

"Yea, um, I'll think about it. Love, I actually have to go but I'll talk to you later. Bye. Thank you.", and just like that, I end the call and reply to Philip to make out a time and place.

***

We decide on 8 pm at my place and just as the clock hits 8:03 I hear a knock on my door.

I don't even look through the spy because I know who is there: "Hello Phil."

After I open he door fully, he gives me a tight squeeze and smiles down at me: "Hey. How are you feeling?"

I shrug and gesture for him to come in and sit down.

After we both get comfortably seated, he begins to talk about what he wants to discuss: "Basically, I just wanted to check up on you in person because it could be the last time we see each other for a while and obviously congratulate you on the move. This is a huge step."

"Thank you. A lot. Yes this really is a big change in my life. I'll miss living with you and your delicious hot chocolates.", I joke.

He lets out a small giggle before getting a bit more serious again: "We'll miss you a lot, too. Especially Dan."

I sigh before he continues: "He's been miserable. He's not been to any conventions at all. Everyone thinks he just has the flu and evey time I go to his room, he's crying."

"Really? Oh my.", I say, feeling a little guilty since he misses out because of me.

"Yea... How have you been?"

"Honestly? Miserable too. I'm really upset, you know. But I just don't see another option. Plus long distance isn't for him or me, to be fair."

He nods: "I get that. Totally. But it's so sad to see that the dream couple broke up. You guys were, no, are perfect for each other."

"That doesn't help, Philly.", I answer with a pity giggle following.

"Is there any chance you would go back to London?"

"I'm obviously coming back. To visit and stuff. But everything is located here work wise, which is so much more convenient. Also, even if I'd decide to go back for some reason, I don't think I'll be able to just get back together with him after a break up."

"Yes, yes of course. Is business the only thing that is keeping you here?"

"Mostly but not only. I love the city and I love Dan. Not that I do not love London but New York is so special to me."

"What if maybe the amazingness of the city will fade once you permanently live here? Didn't the same thing happen with London?"

I keep quiet for a moment. He is right: "Yes... But, um, I would have to stay here for work anyway if I want to take this seriously. The studio is here and all."

"Wait. Didn't your old boss offer you the old shop to use as a studio back in London?"