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Chapter Hundred and Twenty-Five

With my phone in one hand and a pillow in the other, I wake up the next morning to birds chirping and the sunlight softly warming my cheeks.

Ok, not exactly like that, but with a lot of imagination.

I do really have those things in my hands, with mine and Dan's chat still open, but instead of birds chirping I hear the traffic of New York and see the groggy January rain. A perfect representation of my mood when I see that he still hasn't responded.

Not only does this mean that I can't go out today and enjoy exploring the city, I can't talk to Dan all day since he clearly has had enough of me. I contemplate wheater or not I should text him again but decide not to.

It is almost two pm when I get my laptop and start to write a blog post, something I've missed doing. It is about how much I love this city and honestly can only hardly imagine leaving in two weeks. If it weren't for my boyfriend, I would probably just stay here.

While writing the post, my thoughts surrounding the stay here keep pushing me towards just staying here.
But I know I need a second opinion on this, so again, I call Zoe.

"Hey! Didn't you want to explore New York today?", she asks as she bites into her pizza.

"It's raining so I'm just going to stay here and write a blog post."

"Oh, what about?"

"My stay here."

"Cool cool. Um, has Dan replied?"

I sigh: "Nope. I'll just try and not think about it, he probably just had enough of me and is happy I'm gone.", before she can say something, I continue, "On the topic of my stay here... I think I want to continue to live in New York."

Her mouth drops: "What? Really?"

I nod in response.

"Wait, so you want to live there forever?"

"Forever is a strong word. Maybe just this year, maybe the next few ones as well, I don't know yet."

"But why?"

I let myself fall on the pillows next to me: "Because I like it here so much more. And I know that I have friends in England that I'll have to leave behind but I did the same when I moved out of my childhood home and turned out fine."

"Oh wow. I don't even know what to say. Like, obviously I'd prefer you to stay here but I also want you to be happy."

Here I have my second opinion. And I'm not sure if that convinced me to stay or go back. All I know is that my love for this city hasn't stopped and that I have to do a lot of planning and rescheduling before I could finally move. But I also know that in the end, it would all be for the better.

All that is left to do is speaking to Dan about it which I would've never imagined to be the hardest part.

Little did I know that speaking to him via Skype won't be what I'll have to do.