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Chapter Eighty-One

Hand in hand, we walk back to the flat after finishing our drinks.

I am still not over him not talking to me about marriage, but I am just glad we aren't fighting.

"You alright, lovebirds?", Phil says when we walk into the flat.
"Yea.", Dan responds and gestures to his bedroom, "I'll be there in a second."

With that, I nod and go into the room, falling onto his unmade bed and unlocking my phone.

Zoe: Hey Y/N, what are you up to?
Y/N: Not much, just @ d&p's, had some quite crazy couple of days.
Zoe: What? Did anything happen? Call me x

Just as I am about to call my best friend to update her on the current situation, I hear muffled laughing from the lounge.

Wanting to know what the boys are talking about and because I am hungry anyway, I get up from the bed, soon to realize that what I thought is laughing, is actually crying.

"I feel so stupid.", I hear quietly.

Listening a bit closer, I can follow their conversation.

"Don't feel stupid, you couldn't have known."

"It's like my dream got crushed. I really thought this would turn out perfect."

"It will. Hey, don't cry."

"I'm a wuss crying about this and I know she's right."

That's all, for my own good, that I can listen to. I don't want to listen to him being sad. I don't want him to be sad.

"Sorry, I just ta- woa.", Dan interrupts my thoughts, almost knocking me over with the door, "sorry love. Did I hit you?"

"No it's fine.", I say, rubbing my elbow.

His lashes are sticking together and his lips look rosy, like every time he cries.
He cries quite a lot.
Sometimes when he watches the news, when we listen to music or (these are the worst) when he binge watches videos of people hearing, speaking or waking for the first time.

The worst ones are when he tries to cover them up, just like this one.
He pulls his fringe further down, licks his lips and stretches his hands, just so I won't notice. But I always do.

"Want to order some food?", he asks, sitting down on his bed.
"No."
"You okay?"
"You okay?"
"Did you- hear?"
"It was a really dramatic, Oscar worthy, sob. How could one not hear that?"
"Don't make fun of me.", he sighs.

I chuckle and sit down next to him, gently stroking his arm: "I'm just fooling around. Yes, I did hear and I'm sorry for spying on you but I can't ignore you crying. And it made me sad."
"I tried to cover it up. I didn't want to seem like a little bitch."
"You aren't 'a little bitch', you're my little bitch. I love you Dan and just because I don't feel like I am ready to marry you right now, doesn't mean I love you any less. It simply means that I'm just not ready to take a huge step like that."
"I am sorry for being so selfish."
"Come on now. You are the least selfish person ever.", I say and kiss his cheek.

He finally turns around to me, fixes his fringe, stops licking his lips and stretching his hands, smiles and kisses me, pushing me down on the bed: "I love you so much, thank you."

Our moment got disturbed by a new text appearing on my phone screen.

Zoe: Call me, I'm worried plus some huge news just came in!!

Before I could reply, Dan ripped my phone out of my hand and pinned me against the bed, kissing me passionately.