Have Been In Love With The Superstar (COMPLETED)

63: I Almost Do

63: I Almost Do

We are all now busy preparing for the concert. Lahat kami ay maraming ginagawa. Nagla-last rehearsal na rin ako para mamaya. This gonna be a tiring one but for sure, this gonna be awesome.

Before ako mag-concert ay nagkaroon ako ng meet and greet sa mga masswerteng fans. Wala naman sila sa exclusive meet up noong isang araw. Matapos iyon ay konting pahinga at sasabak na sa concert. Kinakabahan na naman ako.

Mga sigaw, hiyaw, at talunan ang agad na sumalubong sa akin ng umapak na ako ng stage habang kumakanta. Nakaka-kita ako ng marami-raming celebrities na halatang excited na makita ako at ang performance ko.

There are lots of spectator. Different levels and status kaya nakaka-kaba kahit ilang grammy awards na ang natanggap ko. Kahit ilan pa yan at kung anong klaseng award ay hindi iyon sukatan para hindi ako kabahan.

"Tonight is amazing, isn't it, Manila?" I said over the microphone.

I heard their responses through their loud screams. I chuckled.

I'd love to hear them more.

"I'm so glad to be back after long years. I was just a fan and now I'm performing already in front of so many lovely people!" I said and give a little chuckles.

Nag-intro naman ako para sa susunod na kakantahin. Medyo mellow kaya nagdilim ang arena at tanging mga ilaw lang ng gadgets at kung ano-ano pang dala ng mga fans.

As I am performing, muli akong nilibot ng sarili kong isip sa nakaraan. It takes a detour. And all the emotions came to me so fast. I tried to divert myself but I can't help it but to think of them more than I should forget them. Pinahirapan pa ako lalo ng makita ko si Kean na may kasamang babae. Hindi ko alam kung kasama ba niya iyon o katabi lang. Hindi ko dapat nilibot ang buong linyang iyon pero parang may sariling sistema ang ulo ko para isa-isahin ang nasa linyang iyon. Nakita ko si Camilla kasama si Ryla na kapatid ni Reniel. And Reniel was there. Standing beside his sister with his arms being crossed over his chest and looking at me straightly with those serious face.

My heart jumped a beat when our eyes met. At dahil roon, muntikan na akong magkamali sa lyrics ko at sa steps.

Marahan kong pinikit ang aking mata dahil sa katangahan. Ano ba ang nangyayari sa akin? Hindi naman ako ganito eh. Hinding-hindi ako ganito.

I forced myself to move even just a bit for me to forget it. And luckiky I did kahit pahirapan.

"There are things that we wanted to do but there are things that are holding us back. People don't know what we're struggling just to do things for them but we also don't know what's in their head about us. So this next song is called 'I Almost Do'."

Biglang dumilim para sa pagse-set up ng panibagong kanta. Nasa backstage naman ako para mag-change costume. Tuloy pa rin ang tugtog para walang dead air.

"I bet this time of night you're still up

I bet you're tired from a long hard week

I bet you're sitting in your chair by the window looking out at the city

And I bet sometimes you wonder about me."

Pagkanta ko sa first verse habang nasa isang bed, umaakting.

"And I just wanna tell you

It takes everything in me not to call you

And I wish I could run to you

And I hope you know that every time I don't

I almost do,

I almost do."