Have Been In Love With The Superstar (COMPLETED)

60: Mother

60: Mother

The hiking is a wearying activity albeit it was one of the memorable adventures of my life. We hiked two days and we camped for only one night. Hindi ko kinaya ang kagat ng lamok kahit may insect repellent tsaka may iniwan pa kaming trabaho kaya kailangan din namin kaagad bumalik.

Todo rehearsal ang ginagawa ko tsaka may guestings ako sa iba't ibang show to promote my new album. It's my third studio album and si David Cole parin ang producer ko. We are close enough. Dahil sa kanya kaya narito ako. He was the first one who discovered me.

"Are you ready for your world tour?" tanong ni Tyra ng nagpapahinga ako matapos ang nakakapagod na rehearsal.

"Yeah.. sort of."

"Well, you have to. We're now counting hours not just days."

I rested my head at the backrest of my chair and try to have a good state of mind after that tiring rehearsals.

"I still have three days." I enunciated.

Hours? She must say days.

"Yes. Three days is 72 hours. So we ony have now 72 of hours to prepare for this. So get up your ass, take your things and you're done for today and for the rest of the 72 hours."

Agad akong napamulat sa sinabi ng manager ko at tinignan siya na parang di makapaniwala. Rest day?

"Have a good rest. This gonna be a tiring tour, darling. You should look fresh in front of your lovely fans." she said with gentleness.

Sinunod ko naman ang sinabi niya. Oh my gahd! Ang sarap ngayon matulog. So yun ang ginawa ko ng umuwi ng apartment. Natulog lang talaga ako. Bukas, bibisita ako sa bahay ni Daddy. And then on the third day ay uuwi sa sarili kong bahay. And the next day will be the day for my tour.

Naka-kita ako ng message galing kina Hazel. Shihzu! Namiss ko sila. Medyo matagal-tagal kaming hindi nagkaka-communicate eh.

HazelM Aquino:

Uwiiiii ka na~

Iyon ang nilalaman ng message niya.

Ako:

I'll be in the Philippines soon. I'm having a concert there. ;)

HazelM Aquino:

Yeah. It's on the news. Can't wait to see you bruha!

And the chat goes on until I bid my goodbye to have a rest.

The first thing in the morning when I woke up, agad akong nagprepare para maka-punta na sa bahay ni Daddy. May dinala ako para kay Tofer at kay Aunt Vicky, the wife of my dad.

Pagkarating ko sa bahay ay nag-aalmusal na sila. Dad's with his long sleeve and a tie habang nagbabasa ng dyaryo, si Tofer na naka-pajama pa rin at si Aunt Vicky na naka-simpleng damit lang.

And there's the feeling inside of me that is hollow. My heart feels empty. There's longingness in my heart. I just wish, even just a little time na nakilala ko ang tunay kong ina. Na sana nakasama ko siya kahit sa pinaka-maikling panahon man lang. Na may mommy akong mayayakap sa tuwing nadadapa ako, mommy na may magsasabi kung anong dapat at hindi. Mommy na susuklayan ako bago matulog. Mommy na makikipag-chikahan about sa crush ko. Mommy that is a bestfriend. I wish I have that mom. I wish that I have known her. But she died because of me. Hindi niya kinaya dahil sa akin. Siguro nabigatan na siya sa akin. Hindi ko alam pero nangungulila ako sa kanya kahit lumaki akong may kinalakihang ina. Iba pa rin kapag tunay mong ina. Dahil magkadugtong kayo ng buhay.

Agad kong pinalis ang luhang tumakas nang walang naka-kita. Mahirap na at nakaka-hiya.

I volunteered my self to drive Tofer to his school. Dala ko naman yung kotse ko eh. Nang maihatid ko naman siya ay bumalik din kaagad ako. Wala naman akong masyadong ginagawa kaya medyo boring. I stayed at my room here in this house.