Peter Pan Imagines

Hurt

So, you guys seemed to like my last song imagine in Peters POV, even though it was depressing as heck. But what you want, you get. I live to serve you lovely little Beans.

But please let me know if you like it!

Song inspiration:

Hurt, by Johnny Cash
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PETERS POV

What have I become my sweetest friend?

I know I'll never be good enough for her. I'll never be the man she needs, the man she deserves. Y/N's spirit is bright and hopeful, while I'm merely a broken souled monster. She brings out the very best in me, the only good parts that keep me sane, but every time I think someone is showing me love, I push them away.

Everyone I know goes away in the end.

I wish I could tell her I loved her, yet fear overtakes my mind and that's when my demons come out to play. Truly, pure hearted cruelty doesn't exist.

The wicked and demented are merely psychotic for justice.

Time after time I've been wronged, left, and humiliated. When I became the king of NeverLand, all that changed. I've built up walls to keep myself from being even more hurt, yet the walls block out any chance I have at happiness.

And you could have it all...

I'm not much, there isn't much to offer, but everything I am she can have.

She doesn't see the little loin masked mouse that I am. Or worse, she does. People seeing the monster is not even close to the terror I feel when I believe someone sees the boy. Because that's all I am.

My empire of dirt...

I'm not the King, not a wizard, leader or a warrior... No...

The truth is much much worse.

I'm. Just. A. Boy.

A boy whom no one in their right mind could really love. And she is an angel, my goddess and Queen. Her laughs as she sits at the fire do nothing more than taunt me, merely because I wish I could, if only once, be the cause of her joy; but her smiles. They could turn my world of hate and darkness into something incredible.

I will let you down, I will make you hurt...

But what is my happiness worth if she won't truly love me? Not a soul gets off this island without my permission, yet has anyone stopped to think... Why?

Because I'm so afraid of being alone...

I could never hurt her in any way. I can't force her to love me, nor to give me a chance.

But I love her, no matter if her eyes stare upon me with hatred or not at all...

I wear this crown of thorns upon my liars chair...

Lie... Lie... Lie...

Lie after lie!

I'm not strong! I'm not a monster! I want nothing more than to hold the girl in my arms and whisper sweet nothings into her ear. I wish I could show her, the girl whom sets my heart on fire, yet thinks so little of herself, how much she means to me.

She infatuates me to the point of madness...

Full of broken thoughts I cannot repair...

How can someone make me fall for them so? The walls I've tried so hard to build came tumbling down with her smile. The pride and arrogance I've stored for a rainy day slips through my finger tips with her words. And my heart explodes with color, thumping and beating like a drum when her gaze finally falls upon me.

Beneath the stains of time, the feelings disappear...

They say feelings will go away.

But people lie...

They say to merely forget about them.

Haven't I tried that?

I can never be rid of my love for her, but I'm not the man she needs.

That is why I hide from you...

But please, I cannot bear the heartbreak of being left again.

I fear if you leave me, my heart will stop...

You are someone else...

You deserve someone so much better than me...

But I love you so...

I am still right here...

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A/N:

So.....that happened.

That was a lot of feelings and emotions all at once. But I just find something about writing in Peters POV to be so beautiful. I don't know. I love it so much! I'm adequately proud of this, so please like and comment!

Also if you have any advice or requests, comment them down below or message me!