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A Goodbye

My eyes fluttered open and adjusted to the morning light. Running my hands over the soft fabric I sighed in contentment as I glanced towards the window where slits of light shone through the air making particles of dust shine with tranquillity. Turning away from the window I exposed my back to the subtle cool air that hung here. My skin now melting back into the mattress as I faced his sleeping form, completely unaware of my consciousness. 

Using the small time we have left I memorised details that were already etched into my memory forever more. I ran my fingertips lightly over his tattoos, knowing the story behind each one, even if he forgets from time to time. Each one has a special meaning for us as well, when he opened up to me for the first time all those years ago. Things used to be so simple and lying here like this feels as if nothing has changed, we are in our own state of bliss. 

Slowly he began to shift as I drew my fingers away from him, holding them close to my chest as I felt my breath catch in my throat lightly. He carefully opened one eye, peeking to see if I too had awoken earlier than anticipated. Of all the days for us to wake up early, today was our best bet. A small smile formed on his face as he stretched out, groaning as he pushed the duvet with him, exposing ourselves entirely to the day ahead with nowhere to hide. 

Moving his arms I shifted into him, resting my head against his arm and taking in his smell, knowing that this'll be it. We both remained quiet, peaceful in each others embrace. Neither of us wanted to be the first to address the elephant in the room so we reflected on everything else. "Remember when your Dad got arrested and we had to go get him?" He piped up, voice croaky from a long night. Clearing his throat he chuckled lightly, the sound I had become so accustomed to it made me smile instantly. 

"Or the time when you first told me how you felt? After I had just been dumped and you told me straight how it should be." Shaking my head I felt my hair rubbing against his bare arm as I thought back to that night. I didn't think things could get any better as I walked in the teaming rain to his house, but I was proven wrong. 

"What about that little coffee shop we always went to? And then that guy-" Calum began knowing how that story got on my nerves, I turned around to face him with cold eyes. 

"Matthew." I bluntly told him as he struggled to hide his smile, but soon broke his focus as my eyes remained fixed on him. 

He tugged at my cheeks forming a smile on my face, making me break the tension I held in my expression and wear a genuine smile on my face. "There it is," He stroked my hair, moving towards my face. His gentle touch that still managed to give me goose bumps is one that I doubt will ever be replaced. "the smile that I fell in love with." 

His words always had this effect on me, it didn't matter how many times or different ways he has told me how he feels or plays the song he wrote it still gets to me, every single time. The elephant in the room only becomes more invasive as I feel myself tearing up, focusing on him through watery vision he shushes me and pulls me into a tight hug. 

I wrap my arms tightly around him, refusing to let go. His words of comfort seemed useless, we'd tried to prevent this day for the past six months but it was no longer something to lock away in the drawer. It was real, it was inevitable. "Change is always scary." He began as tears rolled down my cheeks and landed on his chest, drying and leaving the smallest stain. "You never know what to expect in life and so far we've been lucky. I've been lucky to have you in my life for all these years, to see you grow and become the woman you are today. Whenever I hear the gentle melody of the piano I think about you when you tried playing in the garage. Whilst I'm out and see a dog walking by with its owner I think of all the pets we could have someday. Any bright colour I think of your love and joy you have about you. When I see your smile it feels like I don't have to worry about what happens next, I know it'll work out just fine." He catches a tear as I blink.