All of my 5sos work

If Only

It was an assignment. That's all it was supposed to be but to him it became more than that, it became his everything. Unfortunately his assignment was oblivious to this, she didn't know of him and all the sweet things he did for her, said to her. That's the catch to being a guardian angel, it's a one way system.

She was beautiful. There's little words can do to describe beauty like hers, the way in which it radiates in looks but in soul. It was who she was that made me fall for her above all else; how genuine she was to those around her with no malicious intent. About how she waited until she was alone to cry, how I wanted to be the one to hold her rather than simply observe from above.

If only she knew the things I did on her behalf. Like the time she was on the phone to her Nan explaining how to use her mobile but didn't notice the falling ladder ahead of her so I held it up, stopped her from being hurt physically. Whenever she would go back home to an empty apartment her small whimpers worried me, I'd pay all my attention on her and be in her presence at these times.

Thing about being a guardian angel is we can watch from above, we can help with small things and be there with them by their side, like a ghost almost. Except we can never interact with them, no matter how badly you want to or wish you could, screaming and yelling at them to hear you is a waste of time. Our aim is to help them in anyway we can, no matter how long and how much you fall for them.

My duties as her guardian began around sixth months ago during the time she was most alone, she had no one to turn to and felt isolated which resulted in bad thoughts which I wanted to shut out for her. That's another thing, when need be we can hear their thoughts. We can try and control what we want to hear from our human but sometimes when it's alarming, bordering dangerous we have no choice, that's another catch we are taught. 

I was always taught to become a guardian angel, from a young age I was educated on caring tactics, how to watch over your human and channel their thoughts. Once I turned 18 I was told that at some point a human would become my first assignment and I couldn't wait. Four years had passed by and I was still waiting for my moment, my friends always talked about their humans and what they did each day, how they made their day a little bit easier whilst I remained unoccupied. That was until I was called upon. 

Seeing her for the first time in my vision was always strange to think about. Prior to her I'd never seen a human, we'd been told about them but never saw one until we got our own to watch over. She was so beautiful I couldn't process it. She may have had black under her eyes and across her face, slight redness to her cheeks and letting out unholy noises but something clicked inside of me and I couldn't turn it off. Luke said she was pretty, but he never thought of her like I did. He told me this would be my first, one of many I'd care for in my lifetime but I didn't want that, I only wanted her. 

"Ashton?" I opened my eyes bringing myself back to the sky, away from her bedroom where she lay asleep. Turning around Calum came toward me, followed by Michael and Luke. "You gotta stop with this," Calum began but paused exchanging a look between the others. 

"We think you're taking this a bit too seriously." Michael mumbled. "She is your first human but it's like you have feelings for her, and you know the rules." All I could do was nod. Arguing with my only friends about this was a waste of time, I knew the rules of being a guardian I always have. I just never thought I'd be one to go against them and allow myself to fall in love with her, with my Y/n.