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A Day To Remember

Walking along the well known cracked pavement I struggled to hold the trembles inside much longer. His porch came in sight and I tried to play the laughter that echoed off of it whenever I usually visited but instead the words I was told moments ago played instead. Glancing up to the sky above, seeing the clear blue I cursed silently. The need and wish for rain was needed, how else could I disguise these tears that rapidly trickled down my face without a care for the makeup I did especially for him in the early hours of this morning. 

I stood in front of his house and remained still. The shaking of my legs increased the longer I tried to find the words to say to him, how to explain why I was such a mess. My lips quivered as I rose above it and quickly knocked on his front door praying to myself that his family didn't answer. 

A small wave of relief flooded my system as he opened the door, still undressed despite the time of the morning with bed hair adding as a finish touch to this look. He would always greet me with a bright smile, one that is unique compared to the smile he would share with others. My parents told me that his smile meant more than words could say, yet for some reason I just shrugged it off and labelled it as the best friend smile. Except now his expression read concern, I was huddled into his warm embrace as soon as I tried to smile, my face cracking and more tears spilling as I did. 

Holding me in his arms I felt safe, we walked upstairs as all remained silent in his home besides the small sniffs I made and apologises. A creak of a door sounded and we sat on his bed, the mattress that has blessed me and brought nothing but comfort now feels hard, too solid to relax into. Shifting uncomfortably I eased out of his embrace, moving away from his chest and the sound of his heart beating infrequently. 

I kept my head low, avoiding eye contact as I focused on the cracks in his floorboards. Picking up on the dust that was embedded there and the stains that etched the wood after years of being walked all over, much like my poor heart. The gentle call of my name caused my ears to perk as I watched a tear fall in amongst the wooden boards and remain a droplet, not yet absorbed. 

A gentle touch on my cheek sent a shiver down my spine and slowly I turned to face him. My face was sore, it felt raw as I let the tears dry on my cheeks in the bitter wind. His hand moved and held my cheek, gently stroking it as more tears fell on his skin rather than burning my own. "He ended it." I mumbled to myself but hoped he heard so I wouldn't have to say it again. Even admitting it out loud made it all too real, the fresh pain still stung my broken heart and the words made it shatter all over again. 

There was a silence that lingered around us as he took his hand away from my cheek, the cool air instantly attacking the wet tears. His arm wrapped around my back and pulled me closer until I was resting against his bare warm chest hearing his heartbeat quickly as his breathing was unsteady. "Ashton?" I tried to lift my head but all I could see was his clenched jaw and his hold on me tighten. 

Muttering his name again he remained non responsive, we remained like this for a while until something clicked inside of him making him release me from his warm embrace. "Come on." He held his hands out in front of me which I accepted, being pulled close to him and saw the kindness in his eyes as always. He took a step away from me as he glanced around his room and picked up a shirt, covering his bare chest he tugged at his joggers before picking up a pair of shoes all in a matter of minutes. 

Before I had a chance to question what came over him he held my hand tightly like he always did. Glancing down at how he held my hand it differed to how he held it, with Ashton there was care and an element of love to it. With me and Ashton we fitted, there was no awkwardness. Our parents always said we were like two jigsaw pieces fitting together perfectly. He led me into his bathroom where he released my hand and motioned for me to sit on the toilet. The lid remained up and I stared at him until he lowered it for me.