the three of us {chim}

Piece 64

Camille's POV

This morning I woke up and I felt like I wanted to crawl into a hole and just live there forever.  Something about today just doesn't feel right.  Everything seems off - I woke up late, I have light sweat on my back, my brain is lost, and my heart is distant.

"Bubba?" Mam knocked on my bedroom door and let herself in.  I heard her close the door behind her, but I never moved.

"Hey, what's wrong?" Mam asked as she got under the duvet and curled her arm around my waist.  Is she seriously going to ask me what's wrong right now?

"Nothing." I mumbled, not feeling in the mood for any cuddles.  It was just now that I noticed that Mum must have left once I fell asleep.

"Bubba-" Mam kissed my cheek, but I didn't respond in any way.  I moved away and I can only imagine how much that hurt her.

"You're in my personal space." I said, wanting to be alone right now.  Whatever is coming through my mouth, my brain isn't filtering it.  Today just isn't my day.

"You came out of me personal space." Mam said and turned me over.  I cringed at what she said as she pulled me closer.

"Don't back away from us." Mam held my cheeks in her hands and smiled widely at me.  In my head I could see myself smiling back, but I physically couldn't.

"Oh-" I jumped out of bed and ran to the bathroom.  I filled a cup with some water from the sink and opened my pill bottle.  I took one of them and took a deep breath before walking out. I must've forgotten to take it last night.

"You alright?" Mam asked, seeing that I was not myself this morning.  I just nodded and got back in bed.

"So, no to the cuddles?" She asked and started getting out of bed.  I grabbed her arm and pulled her back in bed.  She smiled as she wrapped me in a warm embrace and didn't, for one second, loosen her grip.

"I'm not just gonna forget what happened last night, even though I'm sorry.  I didn't mean it to come out like that." I said, but never looked up at her.  I kept my eyes closed and head buried in her chest.

"I know and I'm really sorry, baby.  I should have told you and I'm really going to miss you." Mam kissed the top of my head, making my stomach's butterflies flutter.

"I love you, Mamma." I whispered and lifted my head up.  I couldn't reach her cheek, so I just kissed her chin.  She giggled and bent her  head down to kiss my chin back.  It slightly tickled, making me laugh.

"I love you more, bubba." Mam said back and let us forget about the whole thing that went on yesterday.  I could never stay mad at her for too long.

"So, tell us, what's your favorite song on me album?" Mam asked and I made a face that told her I haven't listened to it yet. Everyone got handed out digital copies, cds, or records at the party and I haven't brought myself to listen to it.

"I haven't listened yet-" I started, only getting a playful slap to the arm. I winced and got out of bed.

"What are you doing?" Mam asked and sat up as she watched me bring my record player and the record on the bed.

"We're gonna do it together." I said and sat beside her. I put the record on track and turned up the volume. The first song started and I was already mesmerized.