It's been three days since the girl who was once my best friend, died suddenly. Today is her candle light vigil and so many fakes are there, people who she didn't even like, people who only talked to her once in their life.
even though she and I ended on bad terms,we have so many good memories from the past five, almost six years of friendship. I was standing where I last saw her. Target. Just a couple days before she died i saw her at target and she saw me, I was so angry, I immediately had to leave because then my emotions would've gotten the best of me. I saw her with her two younger siblings, and her dad, who looks just like her. she was glaring at me evily from the side and I wanted to flip her off. This is just a random rant that I don't really know how to feel about. I feel grief and sadness for the old friend i just lost, but at the same time i still hate her.
I watched her get into her car while I went to mine, I had been trying to avoid her in the store but we just kept being near eachother somehow. It was at that moment of getting into our cars that I kept wishing for her to be dead.
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grief & relief
RandomJust writing my thoughts about a loss that has recently happened to me.. My grief along with very mixed feelings. All real. Very personal and just a journal. Published July 8th, 2017.
