If you were here, I'd ask you why. If you were here, I'd ask you if you felt bad. If you were here, I would probably yell at you til I cried.
Seeing X sitting by herself this morning was sad, I knew I couldn't go up to her because then she'd be mad. I hope you were with her in spirit. I hate that I'm suddenly being nice to you because you're dead, instead of getting that feeling of anger and sadness in my stomach whenever I saw you, I now feel my heart ache. You didn't deserve to die.
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grief & relief
RandomPublished July 8th, 2017. Just writing my thoughts about a loss that has recently happened to me.. My grief along with very mixed feelings. All real. Very personal and just a journal.
