I know no one reads these but this is like a journal for me so that I can remember. Anyways, last night 9/08/17 I had a dream that I was in school, it was weird because I was at my old middle school but I was the age I am now. I was walking across the grass by myself and I heard someone calling my name, it was my old friend K🐩, with a guy named Fabian. In the dream I had been betrayed by Mary just like in real life, so in a way I was already aware of everything that happened. I was shocked that K🐩 was talking to me like nothing, and then I looked at my phone and saw a text from her. Then K🐢 came over, in the dream I was so shocked yet happy because I had my best friends back. I kept thinking in the dream, " this is what was supposed to happen, this is what was SUPPOSED to happen " I find it ironic I had that dream a day after Mary's 2 months since dying. I don't know if I should call this a sign, like as if Mary was apologizing to me through my dreams, I don't know. I woke up super happy because that's what I wish would've happened. I wanted them all back, but that didn't happen because of what Mary did. I don't know, I mean Mary was a religious person so I can't help but think that it really was her, trying to apologize to me. I'm just writing this so I don't forget.
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grief & relief
AléatoirePublished July 8th, 2017. Just writing my thoughts about a loss that has recently happened to me.. My grief along with very mixed feelings. All real. Very personal and just a journal.
