Today marks one year since I last saw you. Going to target to get my meds and then walking into the store only to see you standing there at Starbucks.
You'll never know how angry I felt there because just your presence made me boil.
My dad and I went to the pharmacy and he could tell I was mad. I was mumbling how much I hate you and that I don't want to even see you.
I saw you looking at the makeup, the mascara to be specific. Your little brother and sister looked so big too.
I saw your dad and texted Lisa saying how much you look like him. You did look like him.
I was telling my dad how you stole everything from me and he said to just ignore it.
He said that just showed that wasn't a true friend if you did that. And that I shouldn't even give you any time of day.
My dad and I paid for my meds and were walking out of the store when I saw you walking ahead of us to your car.
Your dad opened the door first and you were walking towards the car. When I saw you walking in the parking lot I said " I hope you get hit by a car "
The last thing I ever thought about you was for you to die. I never once would've imagined that just 3 days later you would actually die 💔
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grief & relief
RandomJust writing my thoughts about a loss that has recently happened to me.. My grief along with very mixed feelings. All real. Very personal and just a journal. Published July 8th, 2017.
