2 years ago today was one of the worst days of my life. Not only was I in the hospital for 3 days after suffering a seizure, but my grandpa had been hospitalized as well to remove a cancerous tumor. To make matters worse it just so happens that my cousin was ALSO having surgery to remove a blood clot or something in his brain. I was at UCSF Children's Hospital and my grandpa and cousin were back in a local hospital. I was unconscious for a while and oblivious to everything around me. By then, the damage had been done. I wasn't aware of all the things that were being said and done about me back at school.
One girl that was one of my best friends for over 6 years decided to turn on me.. She told my entire group of friends that if they want to be my friend, they can go ahead and " be loners " Although I don't know what her full threat to them was, I know it had to have been something to put fear into the 4 of them. They never gave me the chance to talk and say goodbye.
She LOVED what she did to me, she was one of those people who can't stand when someone else gets attention, and apparently at school kids had been asking my group of friends if I was ok, because they had heard from my boyfriend ( at the time ) that I was in the hospital.
Even though I didn't have any control or knowledge over what people said, she was still angry. It hurts to think that she took away everyone I cared about, especially the ONE person who I still call my best friend, because it's hard to let go of her.
I truly hope she's in a better place now💔 no matter what she did, she was still my friend longer than she was my enemy.
✨1999-2017✨
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grief & relief
RandomJust writing my thoughts about a loss that has recently happened to me.. My grief along with very mixed feelings. All real. Very personal and just a journal. Published July 8th, 2017.
