I had a dream I was friends with K🐢 again. This time it was real time and happening as if it was right now. I don't know how it happened but we were together again and it was awkward but I was rekindling it. I had felt myself trying to ask what happened with Mary and why she left me. But I just couldn't get it out. Instead we were hanging out and I told her how I saw K🐩 for the first time in 4 years. And she just laughed as if they don't talk anymore. Her face said it all. I told her how I felt K🐩 staring at me and how I almost didn't even recognize her. She laughed and agreed. She said something about a hospital, but I'm not sure if she meant me or Mary. We were catching up and I found out she's driving now and doing all sorts of things I'd expect of someone whose grown up. I was tempted to ask her about why she had just walked past me during my event when I was attacked. But for some reason we were in a car, on our way to get Mayela. We were chatting like nothing and acting as if we were friends again.
It was so weird, and especially with it being this time of year when we were closest. Thank you for that dream, Mary. I needed it🌹
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grief & relief
RandomJust writing my thoughts about a loss that has recently happened to me.. My grief along with very mixed feelings. All real. Very personal and just a journal. Published July 8th, 2017.
