Nancy came over today. I didn't really talk to her but after she left Lisa told me something.
She said she went to your funeral and that X was bawling over your casket. She was inconsolable.
She also said that you didn't look anything like yourself apparently. I remember you saying how much you hated Nancy so i couldn't help but think that it's weird that she'd go to your funeral..
I can't even imagine how you must've looked. I can't picture you with a calm and serene look as if you were taking a nap.
It's crazy how you come up in almost every conversation, I think it's still the shock of it all that is clouding our minds.
I keep thinking of this time 2 years ago how good everything was and I'm pissed that this is how it ended. I'm pissed that THIS is how the years we spent together ended.
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grief & relief
RandomJust writing my thoughts about a loss that has recently happened to me.. My grief along with very mixed feelings. All real. Very personal and just a journal. Published July 8th, 2017.
