Could This Be Love?

Chapter 50

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Ella's POV

Huminga ako ng malalim as I tried to dial Eonni's number. Huling number na lang ang pipindutin ko nang may nag-udyok sa akin na pigilan ang sarili ko. I immediately put the telephone down and brushed my hair using my fingers out of frustration. No, no, kasasabi ko lang na pag-iisipan ko ng maigi ang mga bawat desisyon sa aking buhay, so what am I doing right now? I just can't make a decision overnight. Ginulo-gulo ko na lang ang buhok ko dahil gulong gulo ako sa aking sarili ngayon.

"Ate Ella, may kuto ba kayo? Ba't parang kanina mo pang ginugulo ang buhok mo?"

Napatingin naman ako kay Daisy na mukhang kanina pang nandito. I guess, I was too busy focusing to what decision I should choose. It's like, I'm back from the beginning choosing if I should chose to be selfish or selfless. Now, why am I suddenly bringing the past?

"Wala, Daisy. Nagta-try lang naman ako ng hairstyle." I said and fix my hair.

Nakita ko naman ang pagtango-tango ni Daisy habang hawak hawak ang isang fabric.

"Mag parlor na lang ba tayo ngayon, Ate Ella? Paano na itong boutique?" nakakunot noo niyang tanong.

Ehh?

I was about to answer her nang mapatingin kami sa pinto dahil may pumasok dito. And here he is.. with his usual big smile. I shouldn't have taken his smile away from him back then. Sana.. hindi ko na lang siya nasaktan noon. What will happen if I chose him instead? Would I still be in this situation?

"Hey.. Daisy! Where's Donald?" pabirong sinabi ni Hyun kay Daisy.

Natawa lamang si Daisy habang ako naman ay napailing sa kanya.

"Hey.. Ellie, where's–"

Hindi niya tinuloy ang kanyang sasabihin nang makita niyang tinaas ko ang kilay ko sa kanya. Natawa lamang siya atsaka umupo sa harap ng lamesa ko.

"So.. what can I do for you, Mr. Byun Hyun Seok?" tanong ko na ikinalaki ng ngiti niya.

"Other than being pretty, can you be mine?" nakangisi na niyang sinabi.

"Uhh.." nag-iwas na lamang ako ng tingin at sabay ayos ko ng mga sketch ko sa lamesa.

Nakita ko naman ang pagsilay ng malungkot na ngiti sa kanyang labi. I suddenly felt guilty.

"So.. have you thought about Noona's request?" pag-iiba niya ng topic.

Napabuntong hininga naman ako.

"Yeah, but I still don't know if I should accept it. Something's pushing me that I shouldn't." I said and look at the telephone.

Something's pushing me away from Korea, from him. I guess I'm still not ready for seeing the people I left there. Because there are still what ifs that are going to my head. What if I gave him a second chance? Nandito pa rin ba ako? What if I didn't saw him with his fiancée? Would he tell me what happened to him? What if the peaceful life that I have now will all wreck if I go back there? What if I should stop thinking about those what ifs.

"And what is that something? I'm hoping it's not about.." He said but didn't continued his sentence. "Anyway, declining it or not, I'll be here for you. Pero kung ako ang nasa posisyon mo, this will be a great opportunity not only for me but also for the boutique. Plus, it could also help Daisy if you get this opportunity." ani Hyun na nagpatingin sa akin kay Daisy.

She's currently helping a customer now. Kita ko kung paano niya ipagmalaki ang mga designs ko. At the same time, she knows what will be the best for my customers kaya hindi ako nagkamali sa pagtanggap ko sa kanya. But if I accept it, could she handle the boutique all by herself?