Heartless Husband

Inlove

After what happened Eko were extra sweet. Even his simply gestures made my heart melt. May anak na ako pero para akong teenager na kinikilig sa celebrity crush niya, seriously?

Sobrang lakas naman ng epekto niya sa akin kung ganon.

Bago namin nilisan ang lugar na yun sinabi ko sa kaniya ang lahat ng dahilan kung bakit ako nandito. I don't want to start my life with a lot of suppress unsay. Soon or later, we will have our commitments. I won't give him the rights to do what he wants if ever he has no chance on me.

Ayoko nang may tinatago dahil ako mismo nabuhay sa isang panaginip. What a pity. 

"You don't have to force yourself to tell me so. I understand, Waff. There's a right time for that." Pinigilan niya ako, but I wanted this over dahil sa pagdaan ng araw gusto ko kami lang.. Ayoko na ng may maraming iniisip, na kung sakaling maaalala ko man hindi ko na mararamdaman ang tinik na nakabaon dito sa dibdib ko.

I can tell him without voice shaking. So, bakit kailangan pang patagalin?

I looked back and started reminiscing.
Para akong sumasagot sa tanong ng isang guro kung saan lahat natatandaan ko, dahil malinaw at nakinig ako nang mabuti. 

"He did that while you're still carrying his babies?" Mahina ngunit madiin ang tono ng pananalita niya.

I started to swallow all the tears when I remember what happened to my innocent angels. I've carried heavy loads when I was with him. But it's all nothing compared to what happened on my precious Jewels.

"He's oppressing, but why did you stay still?"

"Because I loved him that much wayback, that I can endure all the pain he has cause me. Hoping that someday he will love me too." No secrects. We need to be honest about what we feel so someday it'll not be thrown as an wrong or mistake.

"Thanks for being honest and expressive to me, Waff. If I can just do something to heal your wounds I will, but then you lost something valuable." No, Eko. You've done enough. You taught me how to love again even in a short period of time. You make me feel.. loved.. again.

"We have to be honest to each other, Eko. Because starting this day.. I allow you to hurt, love and make me feel a lot of emotions." I smiled genuinely.

"Correction, no hurt. Just love. Salamat dahil dumating ka sa buhay ko nang hindi pa huli ang lahat. I, promise to love you everyday... 'till my last breath."

That's our last conversion. Hinatid niya naman ka agad ako pauwi. Baka daw pagod na ako ika niya. Emotional stress, I'm done with that.

Sa sumunod na mga araw sinundo niya ako at sabay kaming tumungo ng kompanya niya. There's a part of me that against on that idea, pero hindi ko iyon maisatinig dahil baka kung ano ang isipin niya at isa pa, alam ko namang hindi siya magpapatalo.

I was just thinking about the people around us, ayokong pag-usapan kami at makarinig ako ng kung ano. Not just somebody were stabbing us on back mas okay na yung sigurado.

Kung iisipin, I was just his employee and he is the CEO, that's a shame to him right? It's just my thoughts yet I feel ignominy. Paano pa kaya pag sa ibang tao na nang-galing? I shook my head.

As I reached my cubicle, frappe and flowers saying hi to me. As usual. I can't say something to his efforts. Fresh flowers, check. Napangiti ako ng makita ang isang maliit na sticky notes.

'Flowers for my beautiful Lady, Iloveyou ;)'

Napakagat ako sa labi ko para ma-pigilan ang ngiting kumakawala sa labi ko sheez!