Heartless Husband

Epilogue

7 years had passed i still remember how my wife punch me at my chest right after the wedding, she was crying so hard that i can't bear to see. 

It was like a death on me seeing her with tears.

The whole four years was a hell for us but it did came to the point that i was the one who played the fire in my hands. Everything that has happened after i proposed to her was all planned. Hiningi ko ang suporta ng mga magulang niya't mga kaibigan.

"You know what, Rodleigh? This is insane! She had been through a lot tapos gaganunin mo pa?" It was Precious, her bestfriend. I know my plan is too risky, pero sumugal ako.

"You knew how broke she is! Why do you have to shattered all the pieces kung gayong pwede naman na kayong magpakasal?" It wasn't easy to convinced Precious because she witnessed how jerk i was to Waffa pero napapayag ko rin siya sa huli.

"Fine! Ako na ang magsasabi kay Elle!"

Wala na akong sinayang na sandali. I grab the remaining time to meet her parents. Alam na nila ang tungkol sa amin simula pa lang, wala pang habulan na nagaganap ay alam na nila ang plano ko. I've asked them for permission, they gave it and supported me through the way!

"We supported you because we see no one for her. And you look so determined in pursuing my daughter." I was so happy hearing it from her dad, reason why i became more motivated.

"But if the chase were starting at pag-inayawan ka ng anak ko, huwag kang tumigil. Dahil ganiyan talaga ang mga babae pag sinusuyo, kunware ayaw at mang-gagaling talaga mismo yun sa bibig nila, pero iba ang kabog ng dibdib ng mga yan." I smiled playfully imagining Waffa on that state, isn't she the cutest? Fvck!

"Based on exprerience, Dad?" He just shrugged off.

Chasing is part of our life, so i guess i'm right. Because there is no chase if the reason aren't came from heartbreaks. And we don't chase just to fool around and waste time for jokes.

Realizations was just in the corner but i chose to close my eyes and live foolishly in my own ludicrous way! Sounds so pathetic? Yeah.

My buddies did not neglect in remiding me how fvcking Precious my wife is. Hindi ako bulag at nakikita iyon, ngunit emosyon ko ang naging dahilan kung bakit ako nagka-ganon. She's so soft and fudging innocent to bear my excruciation while yearning for Samantha.

What i did is very unacceptable. We lost two babies because of me, and you don't know how fvcking it hurts the day when realizations came inside my system! I am so freaking broke that i have nothing to ask for help because i am a reckless monster to everyone!

Doon nagpatong-pataong sa mga balikat ko ang mga nasa realidad. We can't just live for ourselves, no matter how independent are we. Time will come that will be needing one's presence in this lifetime. Kung saan minsan magtutulak sa atin na wag na natin itong bitawan.

May sounds selfish but that's how it goes.

Maybe this sounds so freaking corny but i'm glad having friends in life that never gets tired in reminding me to see the worth of all the living things here in this world.

And ofcourse, Waffa my wife taught me many things without even trying! Sapat na iyong mga aksiyong pinapakita niya para matuto ako. Kasi sa totoo lang, to learn is so easy. You just have to apply willingness while processing.

It's not easy, but the more you complain about it, the hardness becoming more definite.

Bumaba ang tingin ko sa kaniya nang mas isiniksik niya pa ang ulo niya sa may leeg ko. Nakahilig siya sa dibdib ko, she's in between my legs.