Heartless Husband

Hard-headed

Inakay ko ka-agad si Keisxia pababa ng sasakyan, sa kadahilanang ayoko ng humaba pa ang usapan. I really hate it when he brought out that topic. What for? Bakit patuloy niya parin iyong binubuksan kung wala namang patutunguhan? When in fact, i already told him that there is no chance for us.

Pabagsak akong naupo sa sofa. Why i am stressing myself towards him anyway? I just did what i think is better, alright? Pero parang may mali parin! Was it good to throw foul words and show rough attitude just so he can get rid of me? When it is obviously can't affect him! Nanatiling pursigido. Hindi manlang natinag!

Ayoko naman siyang hayaan sa mga ginagawa niya, it can probably give him a motive to hope! At ayokong dumating sa punto, na iyon ang isusumbat niya sa akin sa huli. I honestly don't know what will i do to him. If i will still keep on showing him inappropriate actions, na alam kong hindi ko naman makakayanang gawin ng matagalan. Guilt will surely encroach in my system, and then lots of random thoughts will get inside my head, which can cause more stress.

I sighed heavily. Patuloy sa paglayag ang utak. Iniisip kung ano ang pwedeng gawin para lang matigil na ang kahibangan niya.

"What were you thinking? Mukhang malalim ang iniisip mo." It is a statement from my mom. Sinundan ko ng tingin kung saan nang-galing iyong tinig niya. To only found out that she's on my back-- they are on my back. My mom move a little bit and sit on the armrest of the sofa. While dad remain still, standing behind our back. Both of his hands were slid inside his pocket.

I let out another sigh as an answer.

"I know your longing to him, hija. But please! Don't stress yourself too much. Yes! Maybe it's part of our lives but don't make it an excuse just for you not to think of him, a'ight?" What i think on their thoughts wasn't wrong. It still Eko they though is the cause of my stress. No he's not! It's Rodleigh.

Tango lang ang naging sagot ko kay mommy. I don't have any plans telling it to them. They've became oppress just because of me and my situation. Wala na akong balak pang dagdagan iyon. I already gave them too much. And i realized that i shouldn't tell them whatever obstacles i'm facing from now on. Malaki na ako at kaya ko na. Ang mga problema ko ay hindi na dapat pa pinoproblema ng mga magulang ko. I will try not to look problematic. And if i will tell them something, then it's not about me anymore.

Sa sumunod na araw ay maganda ang gising ko. I don't know why, i feel relieved. Sobrang gaan ng dibdib ko, not unlike the days that passed. Na parang may kung anong mga bagay ang umiipit sa puso ko sa bawat araw na gumising ako at wala siya sa tabi ko.

Today is way different from the past few days. I don't know if it's just me or there is really something good will happen. This is the first time i felt this. I can feel the excitement in my heart. It is so loud to the point that i can almost hear its beating. May mga ngiting pilit na kumakawala sa mga labi ko, ngunit hirap na hirap akong itago iyon dahil baka mapag-kamalan akong siraulo.

Was it meant to transpire abruptly? Ah! I don't think so, we'll just see it later. Baka nag-oover think lang ako.

A wide smile form in my lips as i face the mirror. What's happening with me? Am i becoming a crazy woman? Omayghad! I started slapping my face lightly, thinking that i am just dreaming! It hurts! I'm in reality, i am not dreaming for heaven sake!

I hurriedly grab my handbag and quickly go downstairs. Sinuyod ko ang daan patungong kusina. Maybe, Keisxia is already done eating.

"Oh, hija! Halika, mag-agahan ka muna bago kayo umalis."

"Ay! Huwag na po, manang. Doon nalang ho ako kakain, ihahatid ko pa ho kasi si Keisxia." There is no Rodleigh for today. For today? For a lifetime!