A Teacher's Diary

The Heartbroken

June 30, 2014

Monday

I'm on my way home. Somehow, I am relieved that I survived the day. I was able to get my salary as well so it's not such a bad day after all.

It is already 8:22 PM. My co-teachers, Shane, Donna and Jessie ate our dinner at Jollibee since we can afford to spend money today. We took that long after school hours because we let Jessie vent out to us her confusion towards her break-up to someone named Kiko (whom I saw once upon a time outside school when I was about to come in. He was with Jessie having a weird awkward chat).

Jessie's real name is Jennica. Not that this is important but I really wonder how it evolved to Jessie. But anyway, I think her dilemma has been going on for two weeks now. And it is just today that I knew the not-so-whole story (since of course, I don't know the side story of the guy). I can just share her my best friend's somehow similar story and gave a heads up that they actually ended up happier and stronger. It just really depends on how the two people involved in that relationship make it work again (if and only if they would want to go back to each other's arms).

I actually admire her. Being jolly and crazy and all. She has this infectious laugh which makes you so sure that she's around. She's lovable on her own way. I hope she'll soon have her peace of mind. She deserves it. She just needs to be wise on her choices.

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A thought to ponder. I reflected myself to her. But it was actually me who always do nasty things that I keep only to myself.

I also realized that I'm a bitch sometimes. And I admit I'm not perfect at all, but EJ loves me anyway. I am very grateful with that. We're into a relationship for more than four years now. And even though we had a lot of differences, I know we can make it through. I want him to be my last. I pray to God that he really is the one.

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Weird. Ivan told me about his dream of me. He said I showed up in school on a Monday announcing that I was married the day before (Sunday) without inviting them. And he was very disappointed because he was not able to attend the reception.

I wish.