A Teacher's Diary

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September 8, 2014

Monday

It's been a week since my last update. I can't decide whether to continue this Diary.

If so, I am planning to leave Shigatsu No Hibi for now and do the updates here in A Teacher's Diary for the month of September.

I ended Shigatsu No Hibi with A Farewell Message because.. 1) I feel like I am violating a lot of people's privacy. 2) I'm starting to feel like having my pupils as followers and being able to get access with my stories make things complicated. 3) I am limited to what I express or say here because I now have readers which is under 18. 4) I no longer receive comments so I don't know how the contents/entries I am writing here affect my readers. 5) I just feel like saying farewell.

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But writing is my passion so as much as I want to stop.. I just can't.

And isn't what humans supposed to do? Change their minds?

Today, I felt really weird. Like I am still in a different world. Maybe I was too absorbed writing my latest one shot story entitled "Hello Stranger". And before that, I also finished the one entitled, "Not A Love Story". I was busy copy editing those two stories by reading them over and over again. I don't even know why I am spending my time with those crappy stories.

I arrived early in school. I ate Sotanghon for breakfast at the Hele room. I am no mood for teaching today but I have no choice. I wasn't in school last Thursday and Friday because of the Journalism Contest.

But you know what's crazy? When you're no mood to teach but then, one of your pupils made you feel guilty about it. Ask me, How?

Erin, one of my grade 5 pupil threw something in my table. It was a small paper envelope. I can tell that there's a loomband inside.

"Is this for me?"

"Yes, teacher. You may open it."

I did. I was right. It's a loomband created with 5 different colors. I was touched because it's accompanied with a small note that says, "Dear T. April Hi thank you for teaching us Filipino we love you so much your pretty and nice. I made this for you because you are special to us thats why we love you so much." Aw. T_T

It really made my day. ♥

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I asked Jaireb how's his brother, he said Joram's okay now. They had an incident last Friday and mommy Bautista mentioned about it when Jaireb texted her using my phone about who's going to fetch him since the Journalism contest was done.

Speaking of the Journalism contest, T. Donna and I don't have an idea yet whether we will be allowed to attend the awarding with the participants. But how I pray we will. I want to go to Makati High School.

They actually had a meeting earlier about that incident. I learned that T. Kristoff was the one who took care of Joram and advised mommy to bring him to the hospital. Sir TJ, Teachers Lau and Karen went to our Branch to talk about what happened. I missed the meeting because I was in my class for Grade 6 and I subbed for T. Jenn in Grade 3 since she did not report to work. According to T. Josie, Jenn's son is suffering with an Asthma. I also subbed for the grade 1 pupils that's why I was with them until dismissal time.

During lunch time earlier, I was able to eat 2 cups of rice plus 5-6 spoonful of rice that T. Donna didn't finish. I can't really distinguish what I am feeling today. It feels really weird. I can't tell whether I am just nervous.. or just hungry.. or if there's something bad that's going to happen.

I don't have a tutorial session with Hailey today because she's absent until Wednesday. T. Donna let me read Hailey's mom's text message about a trip she and Hailey has gone into.

Since I really can't tell why I feel so weird. I decided to just eat again with T. Riza before going home. T. Donna went ahead of us because she needs to go to Seibu Tower to tutor Gwen.

We went to Jollibee and ordered Beefy Garlic. I decided to use again my Happy Plus card by reloading it with php200. And finally, I was able to eat the buttered corn I have been craving since Friday night. While eating, we talked about our pupils' differences and indivualities. Mostly, about our experiences with Grades 2, 3 and 4.

After we parted ways, I had a short talk with EJ. I called him since he posted on my FB that his load is expired and he's not going to reload yet. He was sleeping so I cut the call to let him sleep again.

I got a text message from Tita Edna, again earlier this morning so I called Lois Poblete since she's not replying.

"Gudam pril ask ko lng sna f ntx mo mama ni lois ...kng sbagay may no. din cla dto sa akin kya lng bka ngbago na. Kng may ofc sna mader nya dat tym mgpa-Assist lng ako sa pg-abang ng taksi sna f dun me s airport pra hndi ako mloko ng taksi driver pril...mraming slamat pril.."

If only I could file a leave that day. I was thinking if I can file for half day. I wonder if we will attend the awarding. I want to be of help with Tita Edna. Even just with that day when she'll arrive in the airport. Lois didn't answer but I left her a voicemail message asking of she could call back as soon as she receive my message. She did. According to her, she was able to talk to her mom. She's just too busy that she's having a hard time helping us. I thanked her and apologized for my disturbance. I asked for her mom's number and forwarded to her Tita Edna's number.

"Ay ok pril copy mraming slamat tlaga syo pril s effort mo ne...."

I didn't reply with Tita Edna's last text. I don't know what to say actually. I just really hope that Lois' mom can accomodate her on Wednesday because I'm not really sure if I could be there. I learned that she's going to stay in Ate Juliet's home, again. And that's nice to know. I really hope I could do something about it..

And tonight... I pray that this weird feeling I am feeling would just end.

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"You meet people, you part ways. Sometimes, you cross paths again. Mostly, you don't."

FROM: Lovely Grana 7:48 PM