A Teacher's Diary

Worry becomes my ringtone

July 1, 2014

Tuesday

I've had a short glimpse of the past.

I haven't taken my dinner yet. It is already 8:30 PM. And I am already sleepy.

I feel like there is a big storm coming.

I attended the meeting at the Diego Branch earlier representing Guada Branch for the Buwan ng Wika next month. And as much as I hate responsibilities, I will be the freaking responsible for it. No choice. Dang! I know I haven't been able to fully adjust but I am trying, freaking really hard. I am trying to be familiar with the do's and don'ts of being a teacher at Integrated Montessori Center.

I want to be loved and respected by my pupils. I want them to look up to me. Why is that so hard? I am tired of being an average human whom can only do normal stuffs. I want to be a great teacher. I want them to really learn from me. This is really frustrating.

Anyway, Gwyneth seems to be interested of having me as her tutor to all her subjects. (I've seen her earlier waiting for ate Ghen to fetch her). We will start next week and I really hope I will be able to handle it, given my busy schedule and countless responsibilities. If not, unfortunately, I have to refer a different tutor for her.

So maybe, I am grumpy because I worry too much. And it doesn't help at all. I can only silently utter the Serenity Prayer every moment I lose myself in the sea of random inexplicable thoughts.

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Dear God,

Grant me the serenity to accept the things that I cannot change. The courage to change the things that I can. And wisdom to know the difference.