A Teacher's Diary

A Dream: Beautiful Nightmare

November 26, 2016
Saturday

I had this dream. There was a guy. We were riding a bike. I was riding on it while he was the one pedaling. I was enjoying that moment.

I asked him, "Where are we going?" And I remembered him answering me, "Don't worry, we'll soon be there." I think we arrived at some place where I could enjoy. It seemed like a restaurant or a cafe. Again, I was enjoying the moment.

I was enjoying it for the fact that I needed not to worry about how I would spend my time with him. He just simply decided the things that we'll do and where we'll go. And he just knew how he could please me. No, he knew how he could make me happy. (Because I felt it, even though it was just a dream!) I truly enjoyed that moment.

But then... He wasn't my boyfriend. And he looked like one of my guy close friends. But no, I'm not attracted to him nor that I have secret feelings towards him.

I had some past with this friend. And he had loved me, okay that's given but it's cleared between us that we could only be friends. No more than that.

And oh~

Few days ago, I actually bumped into him on the road. He hugged me very tight when he saw me. I was totally surprised to see him.

I have to admit though...

He is a very special friend of mine. And it's just freaking weird to have a dream like that with him.

And this is just one of the weird dreams I had recently...

There was this other one which I really can't believe I would be doing in real life. Though I had to admit that there were a few times that I almost did it. (Almost. But still didn't.)

So the scene was this:

I was with my high school girl best friend, (I had to say the gender because I really had a lot of 'best friends', well... at least that was what they say - That I am their best friend.) who was with her boyfriend. There was a guy with me (I can't figure out who is this guy in my real life.) in my best friend's home. He was so sweet and everything just as what I have to expect from a boyfriend. But then... in my dream I was thinking of how I would tell him that I have another boyfriend (the boyfriend I have in real life) without hurting his feelings.

He was just too nice. And I don't really get it why I had the guts to play with his heart. He was just 'the other boyfriend' and not the real serious one. I was such a play girl huh?

I can't remember whether I was able to tell him or not because I woke up to the part when I was about to talk to him about that.

My dreams always put me up with a different guy. I want to be with my boyfriend. Please. No more weird dreams.

Ugh. What's going on with my freaking head?