A Teacher's Diary

Astigmatism

July 31, 2014
Thursday

I was so exhausted. I was corrected again by my pupil about the misspelled bouquet earlier. I didn't notice they copied boquet in their Spelling booklet. I checked my LP though, and it was right. Damn. It's embarrasing that I was corrected twice by my pupil. I am sure that my Grade 4 pupils think I am stupid. I don't know if I should blame my eyes. I have astigmatism and if I don't wear my eye glasses, I tend to look at things in blur. Or maybe I don't need to blame my eyes, I'm just really plain stupid. Argh. April, don't be like this. You are in a continuous leraning process.

I was also unable to finish my lessons in grade 3. They were being difficult. Nanermon lang tuloy ako sa kanila. I'm losing my voice again.

T. Kristoff and T. Jenn did not report to work so we needed to sub for them. Plus, we finished our bulletin board for the Buwan ng Wika. After that, we decided to eat our dinner at Jollibee. I was with Shane, Elsha and Donna.

Around 9 PM, PJT texted. "Miss. Nasan ka?" "Just got home. Why?" I sensed there's something wrong with her. So when she asked me if I'm busy, I replied, "Hmm.. ngayon? 'Di naman na. Nagpapaantok na lng. Ikaw? Nasaan ka?" I was sleepy but I really felt she needed me. I want to be there for her as her friend, even at least through text because it was impossible to meet her since it's already late. "Nasa daan. Naaaning." I was right. It's been long since she shared something like this with me. I'm honored.

"Nagpanggap kasi akong ibang tao just to stalked to this guy. And then. Iba yung kinahantungan."

I don't know what to say to her. I just thought, pwedeng pang-Wattpad yung story niya. I did some probing since it's hard to just come up with conclusions. She confessed that she don't know how to stop and she already fell for the guy who was not the one she meant to stalk. But at the end, I still don't get why it's hard for her to just tell the guy the truth so I just told her,

"Wala akong maiaadvise. Hindi din ako ang makapagpapagaan ng nararamdaman mo ngayon. Ikaw lng.

Make the right choices. You have your own decisions. Be wise na lang. ;) Sa huli, sa'yo din magrereflect yan. At dalawa lang kahihinatnan nyan. Magiging masaya ka o masasaktan ka."

<sigh>

I know I wasn't able to help her at all.