A Teacher's Diary

The Dream

November 6, 2014

Thursday

I remember my dream. I was with a kid. First, I thought it's DK, my niece. We had these pack of candies. I was giving her sermons about something. And giving her advise that instead of eating the candies, she could just sell them. And there's a view of our shop. Which, I don't understand why somebody else closed it and handed the money and key to me. A guy riding a motorcycle. Then, it changed scene. I was riding a jeepney and finding things in my bag, though I don't recognize the bag if that's the panda I'm using right now. I was asking myself, "Where's my phone? And keys?" I eventually found my phone, still connected to the charger then continued searching for the keys.

But I noticed I was with a handsome little kid, who suddenly called me 'mommy'. He was smiling at me. The kind of smile that will melt your heart. And then I realized I'm wearing my school's uniform. So, I thought of Kyle. I remember telling him, "Mommy ka dyan? Ikaw talaga! Nasaan na ba yung susi ko?"

Then, all of a sudden.. as if on cue. I woke up.

When I checked my phone, jejemon has sent yet another message. -_-

12:40 AM  "qudnyt 2 alL 0ne biq hapie family na2man kme bate na c mudra at c sister k0h mka22l0q na at0h nq mhnqbinq. ."

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I'm so happy! Prince, Princess, Kristin and Jana a sakto coke with my name AJ on it. It's awesome!! ♥

Kylie Ann also gave me a keychain. She went to Malaysia with Khalil several weeks ago for her birthday. I'm touched. ^-^

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I met Hailey. I gave her a book as one of her rewards. :> The others will be next week since I lack time to buy prizes for them. I remember I also promised the grade 4 earlier they will also get a prize because all of them got perfect score in their spelling. Kudos!

I was also happy because Rev and Ryan are also improving in spelling. Please. Please. Let them keep up the good work. I had started giving away happy faces stickers T. Andie gave me. I really want to motivate them. Not only in academics but also in good behavior.

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Let me just add one more thing - sadly, Jenne's (pronounced as 'Jenny') nanay (Jenne was our previous baby sitter of the ZR kids) is now in heaven. I just knew thru Jenne's post in Facebook so I immediately sent her a message.

Me: "Condolences. What happened?"

Jenne: "inatake nang hika te ..........ang sakit pala..ano. :("

Me: "Oo naman. Mabuti na lang at kaya mo na rin."

Jenne: "parang hindi yata ate april..."

Me: "You have to be strong. Maging malakas ka."

Jenne: "pinipilit ko naman .........pero may time na parang gusto mo nang sumuko... :'("

Me: "Isipin mo yung mga pangarap niya para sayo."

Jenne: "thanks te april kahit wala naku dyan dinamayan nyo parin ako .paki sabi kay nanay thanks ha. di muna ako tawag sa kanya kase ako ang nag lalakad sa burol ni mama...."

Me: "Osige. Walang problema. Mag-iingat ka."

Jenne: "alam mo ba te namatay syang yakap ko...."

Me: "</3. Pero mas mabuti na yun kasi magkasama kayo. Kesa naman wala ka nung nangyari yun."

Jenne: "dinala namin sya maitim na ........pero tinubuhan sya.....dun sya nahirapan pina tanggal pa nga nya eh..."

Me: " Keep on praying lang. Ang mahalaga. Hindi na nahihirapan si mama mo ngayon."

Jenne: "nung tinagal yung tubo sa lalamunan nya yun naging ok sya ....nakakatayo na sya nag sasalita ...pero yung binig yan sya ng gamot bigla syang nanginig ...di naraw nya kaya niyakap namin sya ni papa kase nag wawala sya nahihirapan daw syang huminga... mayamaya tumirik na mata nya yun nangitim na mukha nya...sabi nung nurse wala na daw ...nurse lang nag asikaso samin yung doctor nakatingin lang kay mama....dun ako nasaktan yung walang ginawa yung doctor kay mama.."

Me: "Hindi din kasi natin masasabi ang buhay ng tao. Magpray ka. Na sana at peace na siya."

Jenne: "thanks ate april...... :)  sana nga."

I don't know what words to say to comfort her. I know grief. I experienced it. May mga tao talagang mauunang lumisan at kailangan tayong maiwan but what can we do? We can only do what we have to do. That is to be strong and move on. Because life goes on... And on... And on...