Mixed Girl Problems

L O V E L O V E

The pain of being in labor. I felt so many emotions at once but more than anything I was scared. I wondered if I would make it through, if our daughter would make it through, I wondered what she looks like, what if she's a spitting image of DeAndre? After 2 days of being in labor I finally had my water broken once I hit 7 centimeters. After that, I was at a stand still; our daughter really did not want to come out.

DeAndre's anxiety was through the roof as if he was the one giving birth. I practiced my breathing exercises and tried to stay as calm as possible but my contractions were so strong and so frequent, yet I wasn't dilating like I was supposed to be. After being in so much pain my doctors finally let me know that I was going to have a C-section. My heart broke into a million pieces, I didn't prepare myself for this. But I was willing to do anything that it would take in order to deliver my daughter safely.

After about 10 minutes of staring DeAndre in his eyes and him speaking to me in order to keep me calm, they told me she was coming. My heart sped up and I braced myself for impact. I finally heard it, I heard my daughter's cry.

"Look at all that hair!" I heard the surgeon exclaim.

"Oh my god!" DeAndre said as smiling as I watched the doctors bringing her to a basinet wiping her off. Tears of joy ran down my face as DeAndre held her in his arms with the biggest smile on his face.

She was bright in color, and her eyes were chinky and light brown. Her nose was just like mines, but I saw so much of DeAndre in her. She was the most beautiful human being I had ever seen in my entire existence. DeAndre held her face to mines and I physically felt my baby's skin for the first time. My heart fluttered.

My epidural then began to wear off as they were closing me up, I began to throw up and scream in pain.

"Please!" I yelled in agonizing pain. I felt like I was dying.

After another ten minutes I was brought to recovery and soon after that I held my baby girl. All of my pain all of my worries had washed away, every single thing I had did wrong in my life didn't matter because I did this right. I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl, I couldn't believe that after these long 9 months I was finally meeting and holding her. It was everything you hear about everything you see in the movies everything you read in books it was more than anything I thought I could've imagined. I instantly fell in love so deeply so unconditionally. All I could do was sing to her.

DeAndre soon came in telling me he had to leave for work.

"Are you serious?"

"What? I can't miss work."

I couldn't believe what I was hearing, and the nurses couldn't either.