Mixed Girl Problems

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That feeling that you get in the pit of your stomach when you realize that all of your suspicions, fears, and worries are coming true. It's unexplainable. I knew in the pit of my heart that my man was cheating on me, it was a feeling that I couldn't shake no matter how much I wanted it to go away. The feeling, the emotion, just the thought of him loving another woman drove me crazy. What did she have that I didn't? Was she skinnier than me? Was she prettier than me? Or was she giving him something that I couldn't give him emotionally. My self-esteem is at an all time low. I don't recognize this woman in the mirror. I've become so jealous, insecure, suspicious, and so out of character. He hadn't touched me in a while was she the reason why? I had always known that she was more than a friend ever since her name began to pop into our conversations more and more I had so many questions that all led back to her.

Through all these feelings and emotions I found myself sitting at my mom's house in my younger sister's room ignoring every call and text message he had left. I couldn't help myself but to feel betrayed. First he tells me that he doesn't want to be with me anymore then he socks my sister in the face, both are a good enough reason not to respond to him.

"Girl I don't have anymore patience for these niggas! I swear to God!" Monroe yelled in anger.

"Girl, calm down." I replied.

"I do feel bad for spitting on him, I feel like I should've left him alone when he told me to the first time. That's like my brother."

It was weird to hear my sister admit her wrongs, even though I feel like the neither one of them are anywhere near right. I'm so confused and so tired of the drama.

My phone then began to ring and I picked up when I saw that it was DeAndre's mom.

"I wanted to check up on you. I just don't understand what happened I left the house for 5 minutes and all hell breaks loose!" She answered.

I chuckled. "You were gone all day, it was bound to happen sooner or later. Monroe & DeAndre are too much alike not to clash. They've always fought like brother & sister but this just got out of hand."

"I agree, so when are you two coming home?"

"Um, I'm pretty sure Monroe doesn't want to come back there and as for myself I need some time and some space to think. I can't just take this lightly, he socked the girl in the face. I don't care how angry you get that is never the answer."

"Well don't keep my grand child from me for too long, you're always welcomed to come back when you're ready"

"I appreciate it."

"DeAndre feels really shitty about what happened. He wishes he didn't do what he did just as much as I do. I'm just in shock."

"Well, an apology would go a long way from the both of them."

We hung up and I looked over at Monroe.

"Girl, let's go get something to eat I don't want to be in the house." I said as smiling trying to take my mind off of what had happened.

"I don't want to go outside I probably gotta fat ass lump on my head." Monroe replied. I chuckled.

"Girl, it ain't nothing on your head or face let's go I'm hungry. You can't deprive a pregnant person of food.

She rolled her eyes. "Fine."

I grabbed my phone and texted Rih to see if she could pick us up and luckily she could. I couldn't wait to see her after such a long time. I'm ready to have a good time, shit I deserve it.

We picked up Persuasion on the way to a pizza joint in the city.

"I can't believe that shit!" Rih said before taking a sip of her drink.

"I can! That nigga always been missing some screws! Ni, I hope you finally leave him alone." Persuasion added before taking a bite of her pizza .

"Y'all talking, I'm the one that feel this lump coming in on my head!" Monroe exclaimed.

"Yes, I'm done with him! ButI don't want to talk about this anymore! I'm tired of hearing about this sorry ass nigga." I replied.

"Girl you say that every time next second you screaming his name. Ahhh DeAndre!" Rih said as laughing.

"I'm serious." I said as laughing. "I'm done! He ran out of chances."

I heard someone calling my name in a distance, I finally turned around to see who it was to find Abel walking towards us.