Mixed Girl Problems

F U C K

With such a beautiful heart comes ugly thieves. People who love to use and abuse you for what you were naturally given and in some ways were cursed with. I hate having a good heart sometimes, because when people do me dirty and I want to do the same in return but worse I can never bring myself to do it. I always think to myself if I would want the same done to me but I always have to force myself to remember the same has already been done.

"Why can't I just find a guy who's chill and laid back and fucks my brains out daily WITHOUT any ex or baby momma drama and hella hoes? Why can't he just be funny and goofy and a gentleman?" I asked Rose.

"Girl, men like that do exist, they're just rare. And no matter how perfect he may seem he always comes with flaws. Like with the chill and laid backness might come anger issues or fear of commitment." She replied.

"You're right, damn it's always something."

"Shit, same with girls."

"True."

We both laughed.

"How's my nephew?"

"He's been kicking me like crazyyyyy. He be whooping my ass forreal."

"Just imagine when he's a teenager... Hold on someone's on the other line."

I clicked over and heard DeAndre's voice.

"Hello?" He said. I rolled my eyes prepared to press end call. "Don't hang up."

"What?" I snapped.

"What you mean what?"

"I mean what do you want DeAndre."

"I'm sorry for how I handled shit the other night. I was being selfish I guess."

"You guess?"

"I know I was being selfish and I apologize."

"Ok, By-"

"I wanna see you again, and this time lets do it right and not argue."

"I feel like it's impossible to not argue with you, you say stupid shit and I don't need the stress right now."

"We aint gonna argue I swear. I just wanna chill. I miss you."

A smile grew across my face and I hated the fact that it was there.

"Ok."

"Ok what?"

"Ok we can chill just text me."

"I gotchu"

"Byeeee" I then hung up and got back on the phone with Rose, I felt like telling her would be stupid.

The next day I prepared myself to try to stay zen and calm. I walked up to DeAndre and he hugged me tightly before giving my forehead a peck.

"So, where we going?" I asked curiously.

"Chill, you'll know when we get there." He replied. I rolled my eyes and he chuckled.

"What's so funny?"

"You."

"Well fuck you too."

"I'm not even laughing at you I'm just happy"

"How come?"

"I never thought I'd be here with you Niyah."

"We're not really anywhere."

"You know... I was really angry at you for a while for what you did."

"Let's not talk about that."

"Why not?"

"You know why. I wanna leave the past behind us."

"Without our past we wouldn't be right here right now."

"That's true."

After a bus ride we finally arrived in Philly. He grabbed my hand and we began to walk down the street as I looked around trying to figure out where we were going. It was now 9 at night and I was getting kinda sleepy from the long bus ride.

"Seriously?" I said as smiling as the Penns Landing sign came into view.

"They're showing fire works tonight and I really wanted you to see them."

"Awhhh, that's so sweet."

We walked up to water and I felt so relaxed and free.

"This is.... So beautiful." I whispered.

"Just like you" He said as smiling. I began to blush so I looked away. "Come here."

"For whattttt?"

"Just come here."

"Fine." I replied as walking up to him and laying my hands on his shoulder. He grabbed my waist and pulled me in kissing my lips softly. I'm not gonna lie, I got instantly got wet.

And that's when the fire works started.