Lumos ⤳ sirius black

Chapter 86, The Gender.

A/N: I'm going to be kinda rushing through the pregnancy part because it's difficult-ish hard to write, as I've never been pregnant.

*Lucys POV*

Waiting for Sirius to find out the sex of the baby was awful. We were definitely not morning people, but I had expected him to wake up earlier.

As I was eating a bowl of ramen noodles, I heard an odd sound. Crows, although they weren't usually in Godrics Hollow, sitting in a tree branch.

Cawing, four birds were there.

A loud sound came from the bedroom, shooing them away as Sirius came stumbling out of the bedroom putting his jacket on.

"Classy," I told him.

"What time is it?"

"It's about time you got out," I remarked, "10:26."

~*~

Laying down on the hospital bed, I watched the clock with anticipation.

"Why is this taking so long?" I asked impatiently.

"Considering you're looking at the clock," Padfoot said, "I would've guessed that only 5 minutes have passed."

"Isn't five minutes enough?"

He laid his head on top of mine. "It should be."

About two minutes later, the healer came in.

She explained how and what would happen, as our nerves were taking over.

"Alright..." the healer said as the baby popped out in a tv screen.

"I'll leave you two alone for a minute," She grinned.

It hadn't been the first time we had seen the baby of course, but it had been the first time that it wasn't as small as a muggle dollar bill.

I could see Padfoot smiling like an idiot, and I bet he was already in love, because so was I.

"It's there...that our baby," He said.

"Sirius are you tearing up?"

"N-no," Padfoot sniffled.

"Aw, Pads." I said I opened my arms inviting him for a hug.

Kissing my forehead, he said, "I love you so much."

After a few minutes of this, the healer came and did some stuff that I had no idea what it was, and left saying she would be right back.

"Hey Sirius?"

"Yeah, love?"

"I've been thinking about my career, and I want to push it further."

"How?"

"I want to be a hit witch, not at the moment of course, but later."

"A hit witch? But that's incredibly dangerous, we're in so much danger as it is."

"Look Sirius I know, but I just don't want our child living in a world like this."

"I don't either Lucy but you should be able to figure out when you won't be able to risk yourself again." He said, "You've done it enough when you were young, I don't need you doing it again. We're going to have a child for Merlin's sake. You're going to have more responsibilities than ever had in few months time and so will I."

I stayed silent. This was reminding me of my parents when they figured out I wanted to be an Auror.

"Look Lucy," Sirius said, his expression softening, "I can't lose you. I've nearly lost you multiple times but I don't know what I would ever do if I lost you. I can't even bare to think of it, you've got to understand that the only reason why I'm telling you this is because I love you..."

I'm telling you this because I love you.

What he said after, I did not know. I was suddenly swirled into my childhood.

I'm telling you this because I love you.

I was suddenly 6 after a heavy scolding after chasing my brother for kissing me in my cheek, something I always hated.

"I'm telling you this because I love you."

Then I was 9, I was starting to gain weight and my mother had just told me I was fat, telling me to tuck my stomach in.

"I'm telling you this because I love you."

10 years old and I had finally gotten a knife I would later use to try and silt my wrists.

"Why would you ever do this?" My mother had said, demanding answers. "What have we ever done wrong? All we've ever had done is love you."

But she was wrong.

I was now 15, and I had locked myself in my room, needing time to myself.

"You don't have privacy under this roof! When you move out you'll get to lock your door!" She spit out tons of curse words, and names that ringed in my head over and over again.

I had felt the tip of my nose get red as it always has done, and my mother glaring at me.

"I'm only telling you this because I love you."

"Lucy?" Sirius asked me.

I did not speak, and only followed him with my eyes. I couldn't speak. My mouth had gone dry and I  could feel the feeling at the back of your throat when you were about to cry.

If I opened my mouth I was going to sob violently.

This had happened once before. Not by something Sirius had said. Not something anyone had said, but someone had gotten too close and I had stiffened up, and my mind had wandered to memories I hated.

"I'm sorry." He said, hugging me.

I eventually exited the trance, finally being able to speak.

"It's fine. I just..."

"You don't have to explain yourself to me."

"Thank you."

There was a few minutes of just hugging, until I popped the bubble containing silence.

"Do you want to know the gender?"

Please say yes!

"Do you want to?"

"Well I need you to tell me because then I can tell you."

"Well then I—"

The door swung open to reveal a healer holding a folder in their hands.

"It seems the baby is 100% healthy," she ruffled through the folder, "Would you like to know the gender?"

I looked over to Sirius.

It's your call.

"Yes," He said, "We'd like to know the gender."