JEMIMA
I lay on the floor next to max trying to steady my breath. Max leant up on his elbow looking down at me to his side.
"Come on, go get your swimmers on" he nudged me. I shook my head at him adjusting my clothing uncomfortably, tugging my T-shirt down as far as it would go to make sure my stomach was completely covered from his view. He looked down at me and placed his hands on mine to stop me fidgeting. "What's the problem?"
"I....I...."
"Emmy!" He scolded.
I raised my shirt revealing my tiny stomach and rolled trousers. "I'm hideous"
"No you have control issues with food. Don't you think we know you're a skinny Minnie?" I shrugged at him. "I've just been tickling your boney ribs and hips for the last half hour Emmy, of course I noticed." He poked my side.
"Yeah, but that's different from looking." I pulled my shirt back down quickly.
"Ok, well this is new" he pointed to my rolled trouser waste.
"They fall down otherwise"
"I see, well that's not good is it" I shook my head. "So what we going to do about it" I threw back my head in frustration putting my hands on my head.
"I wanna eat, I'm fucking hungry ALL the bloody time it's hard to concentrate, I get dizzy and light headed, every time I try this little voice tells me to stop"
"Well tell that voice to fuck off and start listening to me instead"
"What?"
"Tell it to fuck off go on"
"What out loud, no"
He stood up grabbed my hand and took me out to the garden.
"Go on do it" he encouraged, I shook my head shyly.
"Do What?" Matty ran over to us dripping wet from the pool.
"Emmy here is going to tell the little voice in her head thats telling her not to eat to FUCK OFF!" He yelled the last two words up into the air.
"Max I can't" I whispered.
"FUCK OFF FOOD GREMLIN" milo shouted form the pool.
"FUCK OFF AND LEAVE MY SISTER ALONE" Matty screamed at the top of his voice
"FUCK OFF" Tom started to yell repeatedly as he ran over to join us.
"Yeah FUCK YOU you asshole" Ed laughed.
Max took my hands "you can do it Em"
"Fuck off" I said quietly
"I couldn't hear that could you boys?" He smirked. A chorus of noooooo's rang out.
"FUCK OFF," I yelled at the top of my voice "FUCK OFF FUCK OFF FUUUUUUCCCKKKK OFFFFFFF"
"That's my girl" max grinned at me, dropping an arm over my shoulders. "Swimsuits let's go" he laughed kissing my temple as he dragged me inside.
I put my bikini on standing in front of the mirror glancing at myself. I was far too skinny, I wasn't as bad as I was but I still hated the image staring back at me in the mirror. Plus I had scars left over from Steve, I hated knowing they were there and they would never go away. I flopped face down on the bed letting out a frustrated moan.
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Finding Jemima
General FictionJemima was a lost soul, but after reuniting with her brother after nearly nine years apart, will he be able to save her or is she too far gone to be found again? When fifteen year old Jemima looses her mother she resides herself to the fact that she...
