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ZIDIOUS TOPAZ'S POV
"Hi, bestfriend!" Halos mapalundag ako sa gulat nang tumambad sa'kin si Zaria na may mapungay na mga mata at amoy alak. She's drunk!
"Z-Zaria?" Nauutal kong anas 'cause I have nothing to say.
"Oo, ako nga! Yehey! 'Yong parausan mo! Hindi mo ba naaalala?" She said using her flirty voice while she's encircling her hands to my neck. "Hayaan mong ipaalala ko! Ang sama naman sigurong tingnan na tinawag mo akong parausan ng hindi mo ako napapasukan, di ba?" A tear escaped from her eyes but she's still smiling at nanatili siyang nasa malanding tono.
There's something pushing me to hug her and to ask an apology while our eyes are crossing its each other path. But no, this is wrong. Mali 'to.
"Zaria, lasing ka. Nasaan ang key card mo? Ihahatid na kita sa kwarto mo. Nasaan ang key card mo?" Pagpupumilit ko sa kaniya habang kinakalas ang braso niya sa leeg ko.
"Wait lang..." she insisted. "Hindi mo 'man lang ba ako paparausan ngayon? Available ako," she flirty said nang hindi ako magtagumpay na kumalas sa yakap niya. Unti-unti niyang inilapit ang mukha niya while she's bitterly smiling.
Her tears started to fall. Ang lakas ng agos nito na para bang hindi na ito huhupa pa. Her face was so miserable na para bang siya na ang pinakamalungkot na tao sa mundo. But how can she do this? How can she be this strong to face me? Pinipilit niyang maging malakas even she's hurting. And I am the reason of this.
It was like there's something touches my heart. Nagi-guilty ako at naaawa sa kaniya at the same time. Do the girl who fixed me deserves to be broken just because of me? Is that a worth it change for her part?
Hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili kong halikan siya at ipulupot ang braso ko sa bewang niya. It was like I'm asking an apology to her through this kiss. It was like I'm saying 'I miss you' through this kiss. I was like I'm saying my 'I love you' through this kiss. Through this painful kiss.
Mahal kita, Zaria. At hindi ka parausan para sa'kin. Kailangan kitang sabihan ng masasakit na salita para ikaw na rin mismo ang lumayo sa'kin. I hope you'll understand even I'm aware that you'll not. This is for you, Zaria. Even we're hurting. Even it's too painful.
Namalayan ko na lang na inaalis na namin ang saplot ng isa't isa. And when we're both totally naked, pinangko ko si Zaria papunta sa kwarto ko at inihiga sa kama.
She's so sexy, she's tempting me. Lust and infatuation was eating my whole system but the only feeling that this two can't eat was my love for her.
Marahan ko siyang kinubabawan. I can hear clearly her bitter chuckle while her tears are falling.
"Finally, m-magagawa ko na rin a-ang role ko sa b-buhay m-mo... ang m-maging p-parausan. Hehe." I wiped her years using my thumb and started to kiss her lips.
Ramdam kong sinapo niya ang batok ko at mas ipinagduldulan niya sa mukha niya ang mukha ko. It was painful to see the girl I love crying because of me.
But it was more painful that loving her is wrong. Mas masakit na hindi niya pwedeng malaman na mahal ko siya dahil mali. Mas masakit na kailangan mong saktan 'yong taong mahal mo para layuan ka niya. Sobrang nasasaktan ako kasi patuloy ko pa rin siyang minamahal kahit hindi pwede.
Bumaba ang halik ko from her lips to her neck. I sucked and licked her neck while I can hear her sobs. Naramdaman ko na lang na tumutulo na rin pala ang mga luha ko.
"Oohh... ahhh.." she moaned between her heavy sobs when I started to massage her breast.
Bumibigat ang dibdib ko nang dahil sa ungol niya. I am not sure if I'll hear her moans again. Hindi ko alam kung sa susunod ako pa ang dahilan ng pag-ungol niya. Hindi ko alam na baka sa susunod hindi na ako ang lalaking kasama niya. Hindi ko alam na baka sa susunod... hindi na ako.
BINABASA MO ANG
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