Heart 1: Teared Heart

CHAPTER 48

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ZIDIOUS TOPAZ'S POV

Itinext ko muna si Mark na pumunta na sa hospital bago ako pumasok sa banyo.

Sinabi kong gising na si Theressa at isama niya si Jomar.

No'ng isang araw niya pang alam na nasa hospital si Theressa at no'ng isang araw niya pa rin alam na nabaril si Theressa. Hindi ko na sinabi kung bakit and he didn't asked who did that to her. Maybe he's eaten by worry or nervous. I don't know.

Pero hindi rin siya makapunta no'ng mga nakaraang araw kasi natatakot daw siya do'n sa ama ni Zaria. Lalo na't si 'Tay ang tumatayong ama ni Theressa. Baka daw gisahin siya ni 'Tay.  He's corny!

Kagabi ko lang nalaman na gising na si Theress matapos magtext si 'Tay. Buti na lang dito siya nagtext sa isa kong cellphone kasi itinapon ni Zaria 'yong cellphone ko kagabi, e.

Speaking of Zaria...

"Ganito ba ang ibig sabihin mo ng pagmamahal, huh? Ganito ba, Topaz?!Ganitong halikan at dyugdyugan ba ang pagmamahal mo? Na kapag natapos, wala na rin 'yong nararamdaman mo? Na kinabukasan iba naman 'yong dyudyugdyugin mo tapos ano? Mahal mo na rin 'yon?! Lust is different from love, Topaz! Kung ganito ka nga kabaluktot mag-isip, puwes iba ako sa'yo. If you're a whore, you deserved a prostitute one!"

I heard her last words again when I entered the bathroom. Kagabi ko pa 'yan paulit-ulit na naririnig. Nasasaktan ako but I don't have a choice but to smile bitterly.

Binuhay ko ang shower saka ako naligo nang malalim ang iniisip.

Hindi naman totoo 'yan lahat. There's something on my side telling that I shouldn't hurt her before but the other side of me saying that what I did before was right. I just did that for her safety.

Masakit lang kasi the girl that I'm happy with before is now ignoring and pushing me away now. I still remember our first kiss on my car. Our first date that was so cheap in mall. The first movie I've watched with her: The Avenger's End Game. And I still remember the threat I've sent to her that was so childish!

Hey badass girl, akala mo siguro nakalimutan ko na ang nagawa mo sa'kin kanina, ah? Nagkamali ka ng binangga, baby. Wait for my sweet revenge...

Hindi ko sinasabi sa kaniyang ako 'yong nagpadala no'n kasi sobrang nakakahiya!

I have many 'first-times' to her but the most painful first time I've ever had was when I get hurt just because of her. Because loving her before until now is wrong and pushing her away is the only right thing I can do.

But my oh-so-very-crazy-heart is still craving for her. I can't help myself lalo na't I'm with her parents.

Tinapos ko na rin ang pagligo ko at inayos ang sarili. Pinili kong magsuot ng white T-shirt at faded blue ripped jeans then sunglasses. Paglabas ko ng condo, napatitig pa ako sa pinto ng condo niya and I just let out a sigh then walked towards the elevator. I drove myself here and now, I'm waiting for Mark and Jomar here in hospital's parking lot.

Narinig kong nagring ang cellphone ko and I picked it thinking that it was Mark or Jomar.

"Sir, si Mr. Velasquez po, 'yong Dad niyo tumawag sa'kin. Tinatawagan ka niya daw po kanina pero hindi raw niya po kayo ma-contact," boses ng bakla kong secretary. Aeron.

"I misplaced my other phone," palusot ko. "Ano sabi?"

"Nag-aalisan na daw po 'yong mga investors ng school kasi marami na daw po kasing mga magulang ang pinapa-transfered out 'yong mga anak nila sa school. Napapahiya daw po sila. Tapos humihingi siya ng share mula sa kompanya niyo kasi nalulugi na rin daw po 'yong school." He uttered.