DEAR CONNOR

IF YOU ONLY KNEW

DIANA'S P.O.V

I tried to be as normal as I could.  Connor, Riley, Toby, Thomas, and Ryan were just sitting there having their coffees.  I'm not gonna lie, I really wanted to run away from this place.  But no way, how could I leave Tanya alone.  It's only the first 3 minutes of our existence here in this party and I've already wanted to kill myself.

"Beautiful."  He mouthed at me still didn't stop clapping his hands.

I just nodded politely then bowed my head all the time.  I can't.  My goodness, what is happening on earth.

"We want more!"  Riley shouted breaking the silence.

"Hahaha."  Tanya laughed awkwardly.  "What are you guys doing here?"

"Morning coffee?"  Riley kept talking to Tanya.  And I just tried to keep calm, watching these love birds talking.  I can look at Riley and giggled, but not a chance to do the same with Connor.

"Okay guys, since those guys right there request another song, let's sing Begin Again by Taylor Swift."  Tanya gave another opening speech for next song.

I bowed my head all the time during this song.  First, because I wanted to look away from Connor.  Gosh, he's the one I've been anonymous to so far.  He's the one I love, only one in this world.  Tell me how to face his beautiful eyes.  No.  I want to cry even now.

Took a deep breath in the mirror
He didn't like it when I wore high heels
But I do
Turn the lock and put my headphones on
He always said he didn't get this song
But I do, I do

Walked in expecting you'd be late
But you got here early and you stand and wave
I walk to you
You pull my chair out and help me in
And you don't know how nice that is
But I do

And you throw your head back laughing
Like a little kid
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny cause
He never did
I've been spending the last eight months
Thinking all over ever does
Is break and burn and end
But on a Wednesday in a cafe
I watched it begin again

You said you never met one girl who
Had as many James Taylor records as you
But I do
We tell stories and you don't know why
I'm coming off a little shy
But I do

And you throw your head back laughing
Like a little kid
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny cause
He never did
I've been spending the last eight months
Thinking all love ever does
Is break and burn and end
But on a Wednesday in a cafe
I watched it begin again

And we walked down the block to my car
And I almost brought him up
But you start to talk about the movies
That your family watches every single Christmas
And I want to talk about that
And for the first time
What's past is past

And you throw your head back laughing
Like a little kid
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny cause
He never did
I've been spending the last eight months
Thinking all love ever does
Is break and burn and end
But on a Wednesday in a cafe
I watched it begin again

But on a Wednesday in a cafe
I watched it begin again

I opened my eyes at the end of the guitar strum.  Okay, won't lie to myself either but I wanted to see where Connor was.  Yeah, he's still there, staring at me.  I really wanted to let my eyes off from him but I was stuck.  Him too.  So there was this moment between me and him while we stared at each other.  Weird.  He's dating my sister.