When The Stars Align

Chapter 18

I didn't want to answer him and turned my back on him closing the door, but Alex didn't move.

"Answer me." He insisted. "Were you with him?" James's words asking me to break up with Alex echoed in my mind. I had to be honest to Alex and I had to stay true to James as he stayed for me, so I swallowed the lump in my throat and spoke.

"Yes." I said nodding. Alex's disappointed look made me shrink in shame but there was no turning back.

"He doesn't know Sarah is his?" He asked.

"I told you he doesn't." I said. "I need to go to work." I said passing by him, but he grabbed my arm pulling me back.

"How can you be that cold? I came back home to fix things with you and you're not here. You come back in the morning admitting you spent the night with another man, and you say you need to go to work! No...we need to talk. You have to give me explanations." Alex raised his voice getting mad.

"Can't we do that later?" I asked. "I know we need to talk but I think we can do that later Alex." But he shook his head and grabbed my wrist with strength dragging me to the living room, then throwing me on the couch. I rubbed my wrist as he let go, his fingers were marked on my skin from the strength he used. "Look at what you've done!" I exclaimed.

"I am sorry." He said sitting on a chair in front of me. "Now please...tell me everything." There was so much to tell that I didn't know where to begin.

"We were neighbors back in LA and used to go to the same school, we had some friends in common who introduced us. I was in love with him back then, we were not a couple, we were not in a relationship, but we ended up having sex and Sarah was born." That was a very simple way to explain things, but I couldn't go through all the story, it was too long.

"And you never tried to tell him you were pregnant?"

"No. He doesn't even suspect." I said.

"And what is he doing in your life now? How did you meet again?"

"Belle dragged me to that concert with her remember? We talked there..." Alex looked at the ceiling and smiled.

"And then he became your sex toy." He retorted.

"Hey..." I yelled.

"What? Andrea... do you want me to believe that you have feelings for him?" He asked and I remained serious and silent looking at him which caused him to laugh reading my expression. "Come on...you can't be serious. He's not even your type. Look at you and look at him!"

"What you're saying is ridiculous." I said indignant. "And he's not my sex toy."

"Look..." He said crouching in front of me and grabbing my hands. "I am willing to forget all this. It was an adventure, he's a rockstar, you got excited with that, so let's forget about this ok?" I pulled my hands away from his and got up.

"What are you talking about? I love him! He's not a fling or something I decided to do because I was bored. I am in love with him! I always have been in love with him! I am in love with him since I was 15 or 16, I don't even know! I don't care how different he is from me, inside we are the same, we like the same stuff. Why do you always judge people from the outside? You are not different from all those people back in Downey who used to make his life at school hell just because he looked metal and he was different from anybody else, guess what? At that time I already loved him, only I didn't even talked to him because we didn't know each other yet. So don't tell me this is just a thing. I am not a groupie." I exploded and my words came out as bullets against Alex's skin. He sat with his eyes wide open looking at me shocked and surprised, tears fell down my face as I let all that out.