When The Stars Align

Chapter 101

Later Belle brought the kids back home. Sarah, who was almost 14, noticed my swollen eyes.

"Mom?" She said in a questioning tone.

"Go to your room Sarah and take Tyler with you." I said kissing them both. She did what I asked without even making other questions. Tyler, who loved to play with sister, didn't argue as well. Belle came to rub my arm knowingly.

"You know already?" I asked her and she nodded.

"He called Lars. He's at the Ritz." She said.

"Thank you for being here even if yesterday I was such a bitch to you." I apologized. "I am so sorry Belle."

"It's ok Andrea, we know you're going through a rough time. Now, come here..." She said grabbing my arm and pulling me to the living room. I sat on the couch and curled my legs and Belle sat in front of me. "Now, explain, because Lars left running, taking Lily with him and didn't have time to say much."

"James saw me kissing another man." I said shortly. Belle looked at me surprised and then, I swear, her eyes narrowed, and her gaze was one of disdain as well.

"How could you do that?" She said then and that was a question I couldn't answer, I didn't know how to answer that.

"I don't know." I shrugged. "I didn't want to kiss him, I never wanted to do that even though I felt comfortable around him and I liked the attention he was giving me. I was lacking caress I guess...but I got mesmerized by him and when I noticed he was kissing me. I pushed him away, but James saw the whole thing and he was so broken and then raging so much. He packed and he left. He hates me." I cried again.

"Bur of course...Andrea. Come on, he warned you so many times to stay away from that guy. How could you be lacking love if he gave it to you all the time? You were the one shutting him down! He asked you to do therapy and you kept refusing it, you pushed him away, you pushed all of us away..." She told me.

"It didn't mean anything!" I said loud. "Anything!"

"Try to explain that to a man who loves you and has done anything possible to make things right. Try to see it the other way around...how would you feel? I can't stay on your side on this one my friend. You were the one fucking up."

"I know...I wish I could turn back time." I said.

"So now you would do what he asked you? You were quite selfish Andrea. James was on your side through everything. He was mother and father of your kids for quite some time, and in the end you pay him with this. I don't know what to tell you, I feel like slap you because I know you love him and even then you let everything fall apart."

"You said he's at the Ritz?" I asked.

"You're not gonna go there Andrea! Let him calm down a bit, besides Lars is there and I bet he wanna talk. Let him calm down and then you can look for him, but see carefully what you're gonna tell him, because if you want him back, I love you isn't gonna be enough anymore."

"You're right." I said. Belle got up and shook her head at me in a reprimand.

"I need to go, and you need to tell your kids what happened." Belle left and I stayed in the hallway thinking about a way to tell them James had left. I went upstairs and grabbed the envelope with James's letter for Sarah and then I went to her room. She was playing constructions with Tyler on the ground and as my eyes hit hers, they watered.

"What's that in your hand mom?" Sarah asked and I got in and sat on her bed.

"This is a letter of your father for you." I said giving it to her. Sarah frowned and opened the envelope. I remained silent while she read it and soon I saw her tears falling down her face silently.