When The Stars Align

Chapter 68

"Uh? What?" He said visibly upset. Then silence, absolute silence...

"James..." I called his name again. "Are you ok?" I asked him and all I heard then was his sobs, quite loud and even scary. I called him several times and tried to calm him down but there was no use. His speech was incoherent and hard to understand. Nothing he said made sense, his words were not articulated. "Have you been drinking?" I finally asked when I felt his crying subsiding.

"Yes..." He confessed. "I had a few beers with the guys, I was coming back to bed now. Where are you? What's the matter with her?" He asked speaking fast.

"I'm at home James. I can't get out of the bed until 7 pm today. Belle went with her and she's been texting me, but she doesn't know much." It was my turn to cry. That moment I felt desperate. No one to be with my daughter at the hospital, I mean, not me or her father, we that are the most important people in her life, and she asks so much for our protection. James on tour and me unable to get out of the bed.

"But what happened?" James asked getting back to his self.

"I don't know...she was feeling alright and then she woke up saying she was not feeling good and I asked Belle to give her some water with sugar as the doctor said but she kept on saying she was not alright and then I saw her body covered in those red spots, you know..." I couldn't finish because my shoulders shook violently, and I began to cry openly like a baby.

"Calm down." James told me also crying. "How long have they gone?"

"For hours..." I complained. "And I can't be there...I am desperate!"

"Did Belle say anything? Did someone come to talk to her?" He asked me. I could feel his panic, suddenly it seemed like he was sober, his words weren't slurring anymore, and he was focus on what I was saying.

"Belle says no one comes to talk to her! It's been quite some time now and I am getting desperate. I can't wait almost 24 hours in bed to know what is happening with my daughter!"

"We know what is happening to her." He said sounding sad.

"But we don't know the extension of her disease now. What if she's gotten worse. Maybe it's just a break down, she got very emotional these last few days but what if it's her bone marrow failing completely? I am in panic and I feel so powerless."

"I need to go home..." He said as if he was talking to himself. "I knew this tour was a mistake..." He continued. "...on many levels..." He added and there I felt something weird in his tone. A despair but one of a different kind.

"What are you talking about?" I asked feeling my heart beating faster.

"Nothing." He said firmly. "I am just stating the obvious. More than ever I should go home!"

"No...calm yourself down a bit." I told him.

"Andrea...our daughter got back to the hospital!"

"But maybe she is alright! Let's see what Belle says." I said. "You know what? I am going there; I can't stay here waiting for news. I have to be there; I have to go!"

"NO!" He yelled at me. "Are you out of your mind?"

"But Sarah's there alone!" I exclaimed.

"But there's a risk of hurting Tyler too! Do you want to do that? Haven't we got enough problems Andrea? Do you want to cause a bigger mess in our lives right now?" James sounded angrier than ever.

"I was just thinking..." I said.

"But you're thinking wrong!" He exclaimed still with an angry tone. "You can't put Tyler in danger damn it!" He almost whispered. "Our boy..."