When The Stars Align

Chapter 27

James's POV

After lunch I left Andrea and Sarah at my apartment's door so she could grab her car. From there I went to the studio and Andrea went back home. She took some days off until Sarah was feeling fine. I would come back to Andrea's place to have dinner, and secretly I was expecting to stay there again. I hated to be alone in my apartment when I could be together with her. I felt like I was living a dream, for having found Andrea again. I can't count the times I have spent thinking about her, about where she could be, if she was married, if she had kids. She did have kids...my kid.

On tour was the worse. I would be alone in hotel rooms regretting that I had told her to go away, regretting that I wasn't brave enough to go up to her and tell her how I really felt. Deep inside I've always known that she was basically passed out, but my fear of being rejected by her made me believe that she was pretending. We both made mistakes, I was never honest with her, not giving her what she was expecting, and she didn't try harder to tell me she was pregnant. I guess we were just kids unable to deal with our feelings. It was on one of these million times when Andrea assaulted my thoughts that I wrote Nothing Else Matters, because she was always there, and she represented the most honest and pure feeling I have ever felt for someone. So now I wanted to be with her, and no one can blame for that.

I would never miss on this chance. First I was lost, without knowing what to do or think, I was puzzled by this opportunity, but I knew deep inside that I would hunt her until she was mine. I am no longer that shy kid, I can say things. I am still a person unable to deal with feelings, I don't know most of the times what to do with what I feel inside of me, but I know I am in love with her and I know I can tell her that and I also know she understands me. She knows where I come from, she knows my story and my background, so she knows how to deal with me, and she helps the best way she can. I feel comfortable around her, she allows me to be who I truly am without pointing her finger. She's not like James don't do this or that, she lets me be free, knowing I have some boundaries I can't cross. I know I won't be allowed to drink, and I know groupies must come history, but that is nothing compared to having her in my arms again.

With her I feel complete. I feel real, honest, clean. With her I found my hiding place and my lost soul. So yes, I wanted her to ask me to stay at her house again, because it's where I belong and where I am fully happy.

"Earth to James." Lars waved a hand in front of my eyes and snapped me out of my trance. "Jesus...you were really gone." He laughed.

"Sorry...I was just thinking." I told him shaking my head and laughing too.

"She got you really good!" Lars exclaimed which surprised me.

"How do you know I was thinking about her?" I asked him.

"Because of the look in your eyes and you were staring at nothing and you have never done that until you met her again, so yes, there's Andrea written in big letters on your forehead dude."

"She is important to me." I confessed. Well not exactly a confession because I have opened up to Lars before. It was funny how he was the other person, other than Andrea, that I could talk openly and felt good doing it. I know I give him hard times and that sometimes he pushes my buttons too fast, but he's the best friend I've ever had and probably I won't have another one whom I can trust the way I trust him.

"I can see that, well you two are together now, so I guess everything is fine." I nodded.

"Yes, everything is fine. I stayed at her place last night." I said smiling.

"And you want to stay there again..." He laughed.

"Fucker." I said throwing him a sheet of paper that I muffled in my hand.