When The Stars Align

Chapter 51

We all got back home in silence after our turbulent visit to the hospital. Sarah didn't give signs of life; she slept the whole time we were there. So hard to see our girl lying there with an oxygen mask, isolated from the rest of the world and I was having a hard time dealing with my guilty conscience. We have done a mistake, one that could cost us a lot. When we got home James ran upstairs and I heard the door of our bedroom closing, he wanted to be alone. I pushed my mother by her arm and took her to the room we had downstairs.

"Now we are going to talk." I told her closing the door behind us. I was incredibly mad at her, for everything...for accusing me, for accusing us of bad parenting and especially for trying to make James feel down.

"I said I was sorry Andrea, I got carried away, that's all." She excused herself.

"That's all?" I asked her indignant. "You accused James and I of being bad parents when we are fighting so hard to save our daughter but that's not even it, I can understand your rage and your suffering but treating James that way..." I sighed and ran a hand through my hair pulling it back. "Why have you done that?"

"Treating James that way? I'm not sure if I am following you." She said sitting on a chair and looking at me, waiting for me to continue.

"Don't play the innocent..." I told her. "All nice to Alex, praising how good he was, how do you think that made James feel?"

"I like Alex! What? Am I supposed not to like him anymore just because of your boyfriend?"

"That boyfriend is the man I love, and I've always loved! That boyfriend is the father of my daughter and this baby I am expecting that boyfriend is the man that I am going to marry." I said showing her my hand and the engagement ring. "yes,,,. he asked me to marry him on Christmas Eve."

"I didn't make it on purpose!" She exclaimed.

"You didn't? Because it really looked like you did!"

"I have known Alex for seven years; I won't just pretend that I don't like him because you boyfriend has low self-esteem." She said. I felt my blood rushing again of the anger.

"You don't have to pretend, you wanna talk to Alex you talk to him, just don't treat him like your pet when James is watching and hearing you."

"Want me to be honest?" She raised her voice a bit and I nodded at her. "I think you've made a huge mistake because your rockstar is gonna bail on you sooner or later...come on...he has half of the world at his feet, think this married parent thing is for him? I doubt it! Alex was with you to stay; he could give you a better life for sure."

"Are you out of your mind? What is the part of I've always loved James that you didn't understand? Now you're showing how much you trust him! Look...I don't need your consent or your blessing...he's the one for me and always has been. I will marry him whether you like or not and just so you know he is a great father. He does anything he can to make Sarah happy and I've never seen my daughter so happy as she has been despite all things that are happening to her. It makes me really sad mom, but I won't let go of him just because you don't like him, or you don't think he suits me. I am happy with him and that is what matters."

"I didn't say I didn't like him, I just said that maybe he's not stable, that's all."

"Mom, please don't say more. I think I got the picture. Just don't pamper Alex in front of James anymore because I'll go until the end of the world for him if I have to." I said also sitting, suddenly I felt exhausted.

"Are you ok?" My mother asked.

"Oh...what do you care?" I asked shaking her hand away from me.

"A lot Andrea." She said.