When The Stars Align

Chapter 23

Pulling my hand he took me in with him and sat me on his lap, devouring my lips hungrily. I cupped his face with both my hands and pulled my hips closer to his crotch making him raise his hips in response. He was delightfully hard under me, making purr against his lips as I felt it. We caught our breaths a little and then glued our lips again, intertwining tongues, the kiss was quick as our urge rose. I kissed his neck and roamed my hands under his shirt. He tilted his head back allowing me to kiss his neck better but then I felt him tense a bit and he took his hands to my hips and pulled me back a little.

"No...wait..." He said grabbing my hands in his pulling them away from his belly as well, but he didn't let go of them, his fingers curled in mine and his eyes met mine.

"What?" I asked him a bit lost.

"I can't do this here. She sits here every day when you take her to school." He argued. I looked at him a bit puzzled. Was he serious? But as my gaze scrutinized his trying to figure it out, I found out that he was serious indeed. His expression didn't change, not even one bit and he looked firm.

"James..." I said a bit disappointed.

"Babe...I am sorry." I knew everything was new to him, so I tried to put myself in his shoes and then smiled which caused him to smile back at me clumsily.

"Ok." I nodded and gave him some space not to tease him too much. I was still sat on his legs but not so close.

"I am not rejecting you, that's not it. It's just that..." He tried to explain but I took my hand to his mouth to shut him up.

"I understand." I said pinching his nose and he smiled again, grabbing my hand and kissing it.

"Were you going to tell me Andrea?" He asked as his lips shut the smiled that were in them before, I realized he was asking me about Sarah again.

"I was going to tell you; I just didn't know when or how. I was trying to find a way, and nothing seemed good enough. I'm sorry..." I excused myself again. "I just didn't know how to tell you. At first I didn't tell you because you were pretending you didn't know me, so I felt a bit safe on maintaining the cover but then when we came clean with the story and became closer, I wanted to tell you because...well...I couldn't be here now with you pretending she wasn't yours, it didn't make sense but then I didn't how to tell you and I was afraid to lose you. Thanks for not freaking out." I said pecking him.

"I freaked out Andrea." He said looking into my eyes seriously. "I freaked out, that's why I turned my cell off. It cross my mind not to come closer to you again, but then I also thought that if I had a daughter that I wanted to meet her and I had to see you and be close to you and then I also thought about the second chance life is giving us, for me to redeem myself and you too. I freaked out but I concluded that what I feel for you is strong and big enough to survive this. I also fucked up...Sarah is not here because you made her alone." That last remark made me smile.

"You were more conscious than I was, you could have wear a condom." I told him punching his chest lightly.

James chuckled. "Yeah, say that to a 19-year-old that had the girl of his dreams naked in front of his eyes, that was high and drunk...Babe..." He laughed. "What condom?"

"I should have told you anyway, you are right. I should have gone to you again and say it."

"But you didn't." He said playing with a strand of my hair. "Let's just hope that the wound in her heart is not big enough to never forgive me."

"I'll make it clear that you didn't have anything to do with it." I said. James shook his head.

"Andrea, it doesn't matter what you're going to tell her. She'll still think I abandoned her."