My weird girlfriend

Lei's back

Lei's POV

                           Author's note: yeah.. alam ko guys! after 10 years, nag POV si Lei no! LOL. Lei's                                        character should remain mystery though.

I changed. In which way or how, I don't know.

I always look at the window now. I used to hate the view of outside world. Hindi ko gusto ang sobrang silaw sa room ko, nasasaktan ang mga mata ko. kahit nga ngayon, makakapal at dark ang kurtina ng room ko. I used to dislike going out because it made me think of Sam.

I became sad, even shed some tears looking at the garden. It only reminds me of Sam.

Everything outside reminds me of Sam.

Until he came.

I risked going out.

I entertained the thought of maybe,just maybe I could fit in in the outside world.

But I am different. 

And I don't want to change.

And he accepted it.

Nowadays, I often look out the window, secretly finding myself anticipating for a figure na nakaabang sa  akin sa labas. Yugi's.

He broke my trust. Siguro iniisip niyo na ang liit lang naman na bagay ang ginawa niya-he cut my bangs. without a permission.

That's not it. It's the trust. I gave him my trust. 

And that's not just it.

I realized I was THAT scared. 

Alam ko naman na ang dami kong takot sa mundo, sa tao. 

Pero he gave me a different fear. Yugi gave me a different one.

I suddenly realized that.

I was scared that I will be disliked by him seeing my face. My ugly face. My scars.  

The scars in my face also represent the scars in my heart. It healed already but they are there to remind me of the bitter past.

I was scared that the only person- aside my kuya and teacher- that I came to like, will dislike me.

But he told me my eyes are beautiful.

And because of that, I always find myself looking at my eyes in the mirror. And I smile.

"Do you think they are beautiful, Jason? how about you Anabelle?"- I talked to my dolls.

These dolls are not just dolls to me. They are friends to me because they were the ones who are there every time I cry, every time I'm scared.

And now, someone else is giving me his attention, offering to listen to me, showing me a different world. Yugi is making a big change in my life. And I find that a lot scarier.

'Hi'- first text ni Yugi

I didn't reply

He texted me again. 'napanood mo na yong Anabelle comes home?'

I smiled. Yugi hates horror movies. He's the gayest person I've ever known.

'siguro napanood mo na. pero napanood mo na ba yan sa sinehan?'

I didn't. I haven't been to any cinema. I'd rather stay in the house. But i'd like to spend time at the cemetery because I know Sam is there with me. Yugi used to drive me there kahit takot siya sobra.

Besides, our family,modesty aside, is rich. we have a big house and the people who live here are just me and Kuya. A servant comes to clean. She's scared to come to second floor of course. Just like Yugi before. with all these scary stuff around, I understand. Scary for normal people, they're not to me. They're treasure to me and to Sam.  So when the servant comes to clean, kuya will always there to reassure that everything is fine. Of course, nasa kwarto ako, dahil baka lalo matakot. I clean my room. so nobody comes to my room. Except Yugi. he did before.

Speaking of our family being rich, and our house is big, but there are only two people living, Kuya had the half part of the second floor renovated to an entertainment area. And of course, he had people make a small cinema. Sometimes, we watch together. Kuya Matteo is not fond of horror movies either so I let him choose what to watch. He likes watching documentaries and history. So I often fall asleep.

'Lei, gusto mo ba panoorin natin sa sinehan ang Anabelle comes home?' -he texted

my heart fluttered. the idea with a lot of people scares me and excites me at the same time because I will be with Yugi and I know I will be fine. Just like when we took the MRT. he came back and he hugged me right in front of other people. He defended me when I was in the market. 

My heart fluttered. because he doesn't like to watch horror movies but he's doing it just for me.

My heart fluttered. because it will be date with him. And to laugh and be stupid with Yugi is something that I found myself, missing and actually looking forward to do it again.

My heart fluttered. because I'm stubborn and will probably reject the idea to be wih Yugi and to have fun with him.

I must be scared.

 I am scared that Yugi is changing me. 

'Sunday, around 4? antyin kita sa labas ng bahay niyo. magtatago ako sa likod ng puno malapit sa gate niyo para di ako makita ng kuya mo' -he  texted again.

I know Kuya wants me to be happy. He isn't the problem. He is just protecting me from breaking my heart.

'sana sumama ka sa akin'- he texted again.

Can I? Should I? Why would I?

'all I want is to see you'- he never stopped texting even without me replying

'I'm willing to earn your trust again. no matter how long it will take'- he said.

I stared at it a little longer. then my tears fell. that's just the sweetest he could ever say. 

And I cried. But because I felt so important and cared. 

AN: so ano, ipapadate na natin silang dalawa or kailangan muna mag-effort pa ni Yugi? what ya think guys?

Ano na ang gagawin natin kay Matteo at Kayla?

Paano na si Paolo? Payag kaya si Copper na makipagdate kay Yuma? kawawa naman ang Pao ko, favorite ko pa naman to.

Si Anne, naki-eksena na rin. Baka nga siya yong babaeng papakasalan ni Matteo. kawawa naman si Kayla..or kawawa nga ba?

leave your comment...ano ang gusto niyong mangyari?

See ya!