The Perfect Pitch

C H A P T E R 28

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This last few days have been out of this world. It's like Jace is a completely different person now. I didn't know that I could feel like this.

I feel like I am biting harder than I can chew but at this point, I am not one to care.

I know that I'm getting mixed feelings about Jace these days but it feels like I am a completely different person. It also doesn't in anyway feel like I'm in love with a guy.

I know I might be crazy but I don't know if it's because I'm feeling this way but he's not giving off that masculine energy. Now that I think about it, he hasn't for a while but then again, I'm currently losing my mind.

I'm not gay, I'm straight so why can't I stop thinking about him. This feelings are extremely dangerous for me but I like it. I feel alive when I'm around him.

I don't know why I kissed him that day at the party. Normally, I would have pushed him off but strangely, I let it happen.

I imagined it to be trash and really disgusting but surprisingly, I enjoyed it. I actually feel like throwing up because of my own words. There's something up with this whole situation and I refuse to believe that I'm gay.

This is a guy who hurt me in the past, how can I be having such feelings for him? Even if I'm gay, it can't be with him. No, I'm not gay, I strongly refuse to believe that I'm gay.

Well it did seem like I like him a lot judging from the fact that I kissed him again at the park. Wait I've never actually been in love with someone, I've only liked one girl in my entire life but I guess it was infatuation.

Does this mean I'm really gay? What will my mom say when she finds out. She's so going to freak.

When Julian walked through that door in her skimpy yellow skirt and her high class boot, my senses flew out of the window.

She's supposed to be my enemy but she's so damn pretty. I wanted to run over to her and tell her how much I missed her annoying face and voice. How much I missed her trouble but I just sat on my seat like an idiot who just saw Cinderella.

The thing that drives me crazy about Julian is that she has natural beauty. Unlike girls like Whitney who cake their faces up, she only wears makeup when it's really needed.

She makes it difficult to be at war with her. I mean, come on, if she wears such short clothes around me, how am I supposed to concentrate on hating her?

"Hm, spoilt Cinderella didn't bother to say hi" I leaned on the locker next to Julian's locker.

"What you want pop scotch?"

"Hey, that's no way to talk to your bestie" I said

She burst into laughter "Oh please, you can't survive a day being my bestie"

"But your gay friend can, so why can't I?"

"Dude, you're nothing like Orion because unlike you, he's actually a really amazing guy"

"Then I'll show you that I can be a great bestie. Meet up with me on Saturday and we'll do whatever you want"

"Is this supposed to be some kind of excuse to go on a date with me?"

"Maybe it is, maybe it isn't, If you don't show up, I'll take it that you're nothing but a chicken"

"Oh I'll sure up alright but you better pray I don't because you're going to be so exhausted that you won't be able to walk by the time I'm done with you"

Is it just me or did that sound completely different from what we were talking about?

Nope, it's not just me judging from the look on her face.

"See you then, Reece"

I feel like I'll never call her Julian to her face. I was on my way to the gym when I saw Jace.

"Hey" I went up to meet him

"Hey dude"

"I was wondering if you'd like to do something together maybe next weekend or something"

"No dude, Why would I hang out with you?" His facial expression changed into confused or something like that after he said that

What?

He burst into laughter.

"I'm kidding man, just text me where we're gonna go to" He patted my shoulder and left.

Now that I think about it, old Jace is kind of back. Sometimes, he's plain Jace who I dislike and sometimes, he's different and I feel a spark and connection with him. It's like he's two different people all at once.

Well, what do I know?

Our game today was also successful. I'm really surprised that Julian didn't come. She's not one to miss a game. I think I should ask one of her friends.

I spotted her gay friend and decided to go and meet him. I could also get some pointers on how to handle her.

"Hey got a sec" His jaw dropped when he saw me.

"An..An..Andrew, ta...ta...talking to m...m..me?" He stammered

"Yeah ok, so where's Julian? I didn't see her"

He took a deep breath before speaking "I actually have no idea. I haven't actually had time to speak to her today but I intend to"

"Ok, you're her best friend right?"

"Right" He nodded

"You've probably been on dates with her right"

"You know I'm gay right? I know she's hot but I don't see it"

Dude, you wish you weren't gay. You have no idea what it's like. Wait, if I'm having feelings for Jace and probably Julian then does that make me Bi?

"No that's not" I sighed "Nevermind"

I figured I'd rather just handle this on my own. I'm not one to rely on others. I take problems by the horn and take it on a joyride.

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If you don't love me, I love you.

~Peace