Begging For His Love(EDITING) (COMPLETED)

Chapter Fifty Nine

CHAPTER FIFTY NINE

I used to be a beggar for his love. I used to cry a lot because of his treatment towards me. He's nothing but a bad guy. He's such a jerk and a cruel husband. Burnnon Jevren Bustamante is the reason why I feel every pain in the past. Naniwala akong maaari siyang magbago kaya kahit kailan ay hinding hindi ko pagsisisihan na hindi ako sumukong hintayin ang pagbabagong ito.

Burn is my first love, my first friend and my first heart break. He used to break me every time I am going to show my love for him. He's gonna do something evil if he sees that I am giving him so much attention. Kung noon ko lang napansin na ginagawa niya lang ito para layuan ko siya ay baka matagal ko ng ginawa na mas iparamdam na hindi ko siya kayang bitawan.

Hindi ngayon, bukas, o kahit kailanman dahil siya ang buhay ko. Sila ng kambal ang pinanghahawakan ko. Matagal ko ng napagtanto na hindi siya perpekto. He made mistakes and he's still changing as the day goes by. Oo, marami siyang masamang nagawa at pagpapahirap sa akin noon pero nakita ko ang pagsisisi niya sa mga maling kaniyang nagawa.

I am not saying this because I am blinded by his love and all I see is his good side because honestly, there are a lots of time that I did try on giving up on him. Ilang beses kaming nagkahiwalay at may mga araw pa ngang akala ko ay hanggang doon na lang at hindi na madudugtungan pa.

Mahirap kasi na puro lang salitang magbabago ngunit kulang sa gawa. Don't settle for people who make you feel like you are at fault on everything. Darling, you're as precious as roses and so solid like diamond. We, girls, are not an instrument to use but a queen to love and care. 

Masaya dahil hindi ko na kailangang ipagpilitan ang sarili ko sa kaniya. Siya na mismo ang gumagawa ng lahat upang hindi ako mawala sa kaniya. Without my help he made sure that he will change for the better.

"Mommy, you're so gorgeous! Kailan kita makikita in person? Mommy, super hot here! Omg! I think I'm burning na!"

I smiled at her tantrums. Palagi naman kasi siyang naiinitan kaya hindi na bago sa akin ang pagrereklamo niya ngayon.

I saw Bainurn at the screen looking so handsome wearing his red bowtie. Halatang naka-gel ang kaniyang buhok pataas na mas nagpaaliwalas sa kaniyang mukha.

"Good morning, mommy. How are you?"

"I'm fine, baby. How about you? Are you taking care of your sister for me? Bain, naiinitan daw siya."

Bainurn disappeared from the screen and I heard him talking to a woman. He wiped his forehead and smiled at me on the screen. He showed me the red fan which was quite large and put down the phone so he could sit and lean properly. He called Amaia and invited her sister to sat down next to her.

Nagumpisa siyang paypayan ito habang magiliw na palingon-lingon sa paligid si Amaia.

"Pawis na pawis ka. I told you not to run. Hindi ka nakikinig sa'kin."

Bainurn pulled his handkerchief and start on wiping Aia's forehead. Nakanguso lamang si Amaia at nakatingin sa kaniyang kuya.

"I'm sorry, Melaine invited me to come with her and we played, that's why I sweat. Galit ka kuya?"

I saw how Bainurn soften his expression and give her sister a smile.

"I'm not mad. I'm just worried because you always complain about on the weather here in the Philippines. I told you na 'wag kang lalayo, so, that I can wipe your sweat and monitor you."

Bainurn is such a sweet boy. Magalang at maalagang bata na sigurado akong nagmana sa akin.

"Is that your mommy? May I see?"