Shaayad...

12.

(Continuation)

-...Toh everything was good, as good as anybody's life can be. Bachpan se jin cheezon ki kami thi, sab puri ho gyi. Magazine also got famous in no time and 'Sana' was getting a lot of appreciation.

Par fir bhi I wasn't ready to come out yet. Aise karke mera 24th birthday almost aa gya and he asked me to marry him, I said yes.

Family mein koi aisa tha nhi jisko mere se koi bhi farak padta tha isiliye, unhe btana zaruri nhi samjha.

Baaz ko sabse pehle btayi Yeh Baat, usne bola ki jo bhi hai mumma papa ko bta de. Phone kiya unhe btane ke liye, mumma ne uthaya.

Ro rahin thi mumma, she was missing me and I decided that no matter what, I am where I am because they had a hand in raising me aur chahe unhone mujhe apse sath nhi rakha, par Maa Baap toh hain.

Peeche se papa ki Awaaz aayi, "Sana nu call Karan di koi zarurat nhi", uske baad mumma aur royi aur meine phone kaat diya.

Although, mein unke sath rahi nhi but sunke bura toh laga tha bohot, itna bura laga ki I felt I don't deserve this happiness.

Par fir I became okay, like every other time. Meri habit nhi thi baaton ko soch soch ke dil pe lagane ki, isiliye jitni jaldi hurt hoti hun na, utni jaldi theek bhi ho jati hun.

I was happy, I was engaged and I had a family that I didn't have before. Uske gharwale bohot achche the, mujhse bohot pyaar karte the.

Yakeen nhi ho ra tha ki jis ladki ke sath kabhi kuch achcha nhi hua, use itni khushi mil rahi thi. It was my 24th birthday and when I woke up, my world had turned upside down.

I was all over the news, not me, 'Sana' was! Par Sana bhi toh mein hi thi. I was apparently accused of plagiarising somebody's work, that somebody being Himani Khurana.

I was ruined. But then, I knew that I could prove that I am not wrong. Meri 4th book was similar to the one which was released by Himani.

She had been in the profession for 10 years more than me, aur thoda mushkil tha. Actually, bohot mushkil tha, uske fans were talking shit about me, abusing me and my family par kisi ko nhi pta tha that Sana is Shehnaaz Kaur Gill.

Ayaan ghar aaya aur mein bohot royi, wo bhi bass mujhe pakad ke baitha ra. Fir jab shaant huyi toh he said, "Shehnaaz your image is great outside, Sana ki image beshak achchi na ho par The Shehnaaz Kaur Gill ki toh achchi hai".

I couldn't understand, he continued, "Toh why don't you tell them that it's you, Sana is you, bta do sabko. You are leading popular face, koi tumhe accuse nhi karega", Ayaan said.

I thought that this was really a nice solution and a logical one too. Usi din, I released a statement from my official account. Everybody was in frenzy.

Some people were fans of my books, some were fans of my magazine and some were my fans because of me being an actress. I thought that it would work.

People were way too shocked with this. Like I am an actress as well, toh they might not have thought ki jis author ki books best sellers bann rahi hain wo ek actress hai.

Usse baat aur bigad gayi. Ab log sirf meri 4th book ko plagiarised nhi bol re the, ab unhe Lagg ra tha ki meri pehle ki teen books bhi copied hain.

As in, they thought that those 3 books were written by ghost writers and not me. I hadn't expected that. Nobody believed that I could write.

Papa, mumma ka phone aaya and I felt relaxed, mujhe bass ek baar unke mu se sunna tha that they trust me. Par wo nhi bol paaye, wo kuch nhi bol paaye.